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You will be missed. Rest In Peace Terry Toda..

2012-01-23T11:06:00.012+08:00

6th January 2012 was the day my world stood still. it was the day we as a family mourned the death of our brother Terry or Igat, a name we fondly called him. I cannot even begin to describe the depths of pain and hurt that I am still holding and carrying with me at this moment and the question my sibling keep asking each other; "When will the hurt go away, will we heal?". Suddenly other issues doesn't seems to matter any more.

The saddest thing for me was, my brother died alone. He was just changing the truck's punctured tyre when he collapsed. He was just started to build his next phase of life with his newly wedded wife May Ann in Bintulu. The real issue that I want to share is not really about my mourning but the ordeal and the journey we took from the moment we discovered the death until he was laid to rest at his final resting place. Human true colors manifested during this time and you discovered who your enemies and friends are. Although we knew there were protocols to followed and it was just one bad apple; some government bodies just SUCKS!!!!!

Let me start with our Police Department especially the department that takes care of the welfare of it's so call family. My dad is a retired Police Officer and my brother-in-law is still serving in the force.He called up some Dick or Harry that work in that welfare department to borrow canopies. You might think as a member or ex-member in a situation like this, help from this group of people will come in handy, right. "Yeah, you only pay MYR20 but nobody is going to take the canopies out from the store room and to set it up for you. Don't forget it's Saturday and tomorrow is Sunday. Nobody is working and wants to come down to work and you are not paying them overtime." - the words of the Dick. OUUCCCHHHHH!!! Darn!! Wait until it happen to your own.

It seems like the sacrifices my dad made serving in the Force didn't matter anymore. He fought the Communist and even got shot - for what? When the country needed them, my father was there but when my father needed help most, the Force turned their heads away. It got even worst when you were being rejected by the CHURCH.

Church consists of people, a community; they sometimes call themselves FAMILY. I belong in this "family", so does everybody else; Dad, Mom, Ivy and family, Anddy, David and Snah and so was my late brother. We tithed, helped in fund raising, joggerthon; be it for new building or the Van. My dad wished to borrow the van for the funeral service was also rejected by a Dick or Harry. Being rejected by the church is even much worst. What is the use of a Church when you cannot support the member in time of their bereavement and need. The Church ask its members to contribute in Ministry funds, Building funds, Lift Funds, Van funds and the list goes on. For What!!!!!! So that the bishop can buy a bigger cars. Shame on you. We were there all the years when you fund-raised; even for the Van. Wait until it happen to you. It was just too bad that vengeance is not mine. God is still good.

These are the things church are suppose to look at not about gaining more funds from your congregation, not about building the biggest Parish nor is it about gaining a title for oneself. What was the purpose of your calling? You were not fair in your daily dealing and y higher authority prefers to close their eyes. So sad that you have to let the world control you and not God.

For everything, there is a season and a reason. One thing for sure; in everything God's presence was always there and I want to boast of it. Sometimes you just don't know how God could work in our messy situation but He is always so good. He was and still is our strength and He provided us with all the means. Everything was perfect and in order right from the time the body reached Seri Ijah midnight on 8th until he was laid in his final resting place on the 10th. It was not the the Police Department that helped us; it was the Police men who were not in uniform and even retired ones and it was not the church that supported us; it was the congregation, people like you and me who came in rain or shine3, day or night with words of comfort to us. The Church was there merely for duty. The next time the Church ask you for money, think hard. Will you, your children or grandchildren be enjoying the benefits on this earth. Will the help I channel for the congregation benefits and not their personal? Forgive me if I sound bitter because I am but I do pray it would not happen to you. Still I want to boast of His love and mercy.

I wish to thank those who had supported us during one of the darkest time of our lives. Words cannot express just how much we appreciate your help - be it monetary, words of comfort and console, prayers, or just by being there.

It was so easy to say that he has gone to better place, or that we will meet again someday or that God love him more because for us; Aba and Ma lost a son that day, Ivy, Anddy, David and I lost a brother, May Ann lost a husband and my late brother wouldn't be able to hold his soon to be born Jeremiah. A limb has fallen from the family tree and we are mourning...

Happy Birthday Jesus!!!!!

2011-12-25T01:57:00.006+08:00

I am who I am today because of the sacrifices He made for me when He hanged on that cross. So it is just fair that my whole life is dedicated to Him. I want so much to be like Zacchaeus, knowing how short he was and how people hated him because he was a tax collector; climbed the Sycamore tree, just to see this "famous" man knowing perfectly well he would not be noticed. But hey, you know what, He called him by name - he knew Zacchaeus and He wants to stay in his house. And I want so much to share how that woman felt - that woman; who sold herself to earn a living by selling her body but every time she laid on her back it took a bit of her away and it destroyed her emotionally and spiritually. She anointed His feet with her tears and the ointment she bought with her one year earning laying on her back, but no critictism came from Him.

How beautiful this child that was born today two thousand years ago. He looks beyond your appearance, beyond oneself and the only reason He did it was because He loves us and that is enough for me.

Happy Birthday Jesus......

WASSSSSSappppppp!!!!!!!

2011-12-23T21:50:00.010+08:00

My elder brother got married this morning. Yeah, my estranged brother. Never thought in a million years he'll do this kind of thing but everybody is glad for at least it will give him the sense of responsibility; not that he is not but now he has a "family" to take care of.

Terry Toda married May Ann Padilla this morning in a Civil Court; just a simple ceremony witnessed by the whole family . The morning started with Snah and I being the Mak Andam terjun. Although the whole ordeal was a bit messy (nothing new when it comes to this brother) but that is just the way we are; at least we did it as a family. His journey in uniting with his wife is also not an easy journey. It started I guess in August 2010 when they fell in love with each other. We only met May in June(correct me if I am wrong). May is from the Philippines; they flew to KL twice just to get the clearance by the Philippines and Malaysian authorities. They only got the green light 2 weeks ago with every body's delight especially mom.

So, here to you Mr. & Mrs Igat. Congratulations!!! and may you be blessed with many memories and the tapping of little feet..... We share your happiness.

The family will be welcoming the new edition to the family; Jeremiah(so he says) in March 2012.

So the new chapter of life begins.......

2011-12-22T20:59:00.007+08:00

Since November, my weekends were emmm, how should i put it; hectic?, fulfilling?, busy?, tiring? And it is also that time of the year when you have lots of PARTYING!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We were in Miri for cuz Mimi's wedding.It was an in-prompt-to kind of thing until lil' bro pressed the "enter" key on Air Asia website. Still, i don't think I regretted. Travelling with the kids this time around were fun. They are bigger this time unlike 3 years ago when I brought them for a trip to KL. This was our 1st trip to Miri ever (except for the MOTH who had a week's attachment when he was working with his last company)

***picture by David Toda*****

So, to Mimi and Ronnie, welcome to the club and may your lives be blessed with lots of little Mimis and Ronnies.

It was the 1st time that we met Jareth too. He is the latest edition to the family; the MOTH's nephew. He is so adorable; for a while was a nice feeling to be able to hold a baby.

And of coz we loved the sunset at Luak Bay.......

and our stayed at the Park Everly......

and we enjoyed Hayden's birthday (Jareth's elder brother).....

It was a good trip and I would like to thank my sister-in-law Senorita and the family and Freda Godeng and the family for their hospitality. Moga kalau ada rezeki, kita akan pegi dan buat lagi ok.

I AM BACK!!!!

2011-11-12T00:33:00.003+08:00

Not that I was so busy but after checking my FB and e-mails, I just couldn't bring myself to open up and share and pour out all my emotion for public to know... Not that I've never done it before but writing a blog is hard work man... Not only do you need to think about the consequences of you exposing yourself but of others who might feel the emotions. Where do I draw the line? Do I just write anything that comes to my mind and share all aspect of my life. What if I do, then you discover what a boring life I am living, will you still be there for me?

My emotion

2011-05-16T22:41:00.003+08:00

For sometimes now I didn't update the blog and when I wanted to jot down my thoughts, the site said "my certificate is invalid". What the **** happen? I tried to rectify and I guess by this posting I've succeed. So, what's new?

As for me, everyday is a learning experiences, discoveries and life never cease to fascinate. I like to see good in everything or at least try to but the journey also unfold the evil in people and sad to say in myself too. I am an emotional person; every one in the family knows that, even Beth find it amuse when I cry in front of that "Box". I used to be discreet but when the truth was out and self acceptance came in - I have learned to let go. Now I cry like nobody business and Little Brother will turn a 'sob' drama to a stand-up comedy (sucker!!!). The truth will set you free!! Try it people, it is so liberating - just prepare a box of tissue paper then you are all set. LOL!!!!!

A month ago, I 'stepped" on the MOTH's tail. It was his Futsal night and I was out with friends. Earlier, I told him I would be done before he know it and his game normally starts late. Yeah.. we gals talked, talked... and lost track of time. Reached home, said sorry and for sure I got the silent treatment!!!

I hate the silent treatment. I've been through it for so many times but this time it was the longest - 2 weeks (now you understand why I am not the 1st in his life. Sad....) Should feel resentful, right? But I didn't want to be dragged in an emotional turmoil where it would just leave scars in my life. I didn't want to have to handle it on my own - I was tired...

Lebih dari nafasku

Ku perlukan KasihMU

Peganglah tangan ku

Berjalanlah di samping ku, Bapa

untuk selamanya.....

I can't, I wouldn't...

So, I just lifted it all to HIM....

He said 'REST'....

I let go....

I learned a bit of myself in that 2 weeks in regards to marriage. I didn’t like the feeling of not having the “support” from the MOTH. I can still do it but the whole idea of marriage or should I say being marriage is having a partner (breathing) who shares and accept each other and especially when you being married for 10 years being grumpy is not a turn-on!!!!. I do or say something hurtful, show me how you feel, go a head, argue, trash it out with me – we might not agree but go to bed in peace. I do not need a baby that suck the life out of me. It’s tiring.

The closest in the family were aware of the situation – especially mom, who understood better this time. Previously, it was always my fault and I get sermons. Thanks Mom and Lil Bro for listening and supporting. Lil Bro might not agree 100% but because I am his sister, he’s always on my side. I love you guys. Isk….isk… isk….

During that period of “silence”, we had a steamboat dinner, a short travel to Bintulu by the MOTH and a funeral. Not bad for a family unit that were in crisis!!!

Why am I sharing this? Well….

Last night, I said something that made the MOTH’s face turned and until this morning…..

Men are from Outer-space!!!!!

2011-02-14T16:00:00.003+08:00

You might not want to totally disagree with me. I don't know whether they are the more complex creation of God or just plain#$%&^%$#@.... (please feel free to add.) I would think there is a reason why God created Eve. OK, picture this....

When God created the garden, it was so perfect, peaceful, delightful and etc. But he wanted to have somebody to care for it so He can concentrate on doing other things, so wa la!! Behold a Man. God gave him all the instructions on how to keep or trim or prune and told him that He will come to check on him once a while. So God let go of the beautiful garden.

He was soon dissapointed every time He came to visit because there were dead branches, parasites and the animals were not fed, in other words, the garden was in a mess. It would be ok if it is only the garden that was unkept but to find Adam in a more messier condition was the final blow!!! He needed help.. No he needed SOMEONE to HELP him, someone who is more organize, smart and loving........

So he put Adam to sleep, took out the bone by his side to create another human. The human was perfect for Adam. When Adam saw the human he said WOOOOOOOOW; so you figure.

Why the story?

God understood when He created Man, he will be the head the leader. He'll support the family unit so the unit can grow physically, emotionally and most important spiritually. It was meant to and still relevant today. But I do feel that they somehow fail to uphold the duties entrusted to them coz they would rather listen with their own heart instead of His voice. That's why He asked the wives to Submit to their husband because submitting itself takes a lot of courage, humility and love which sometimes men don't understand. God is perfect. He knows the female species are a stronger load. In return he asked the husbands to LOVE YOUR WIFE because I think when man loves, he is dedicated to them and will support them in every way he can. Men, it is always good to listen to your wife. You are wise if you listen to your wife. I guess that is relevant too. But still, man can never fully understand woman coz when God created Woman, the man was sleeping.

I rest my case.

PS. I like to thank Fiona for the insight....

Congrats Cindy & Paul!!!!

2011-01-10T20:23:00.007+08:00

This is how you should start a year.... by having a wedding!!!!

So to Cindy & Paul:

Whenever there is happiness
Hope you'll be there too,
Wherever there are friendly smiles
Hope they'll smile on you,
Whenever there is sunshine,
Hope it shine especially for you
to make each day for you
as bright as it can be.

(photo: Masan Kaya)

01.01.11

2011-01-01T21:28:00.004+08:00

I spent New Year's eve with my In-laws in kampung. Just because I dreaded going up and down the hill in darkness, I skipped New Year's eve with my family for the past few years!!! I have to admit, I did enjoyed myself - minus the hiking........

Do not ask me my New Year's Resolution; I do not fit in that category of people who sets resolutions, works toward it, achieve it then set another one every year. You see what is wrong with this picture? It is too perfect!!!!!! I do not live in a perfect world although I wish mine is. So every end of the year I mourned; coz I didn't meet..... Luckily it s not "sales' target".

This year, I'll make a small adjustment - I will have my Wishes lists and top of my list will have to be with God. I would want my life and those around me to be so fulfilling with His Grace that we would not want and in need of none other than HIM. That's the priority.

Then I still want to get rid of the access baggage that's hugging me - if I may....(the mind's willing but ooohh the flesh...)

I want to be happy, all the time....

Baby?????????

Yippieeeee It's a holiday!!!!!

2010-12-30T21:34:00.010+08:00

Thank God the National Team won against Indonesia to win the AFF Suzuki cup last night so PM declared tomorrow; Friday and happens to be the last day of year as a Public Holiday. I have tonnes to do - need to register the children for next school term, then I might be meeting Audrey or/and hopefully can do some spring-cleaning.

FYI, I enjoyed doing the Birthday party for the kids. They had their favourite friends over and I know they had fun. They've grown so fast... That's why I keep telling Kelvin who has a 1 year old daughter, no matter how tired or how demeaning some situation might be, just enjoy it coz it is phases of life your kids go through and it aint coming back. Some parents might find it troublesome but that is life but instead of looking at it negatively, look at it as time of nourishing and sharing and spreading and just watching them grow. How fulfilling.....

I guess, it is also not to late to say Merry Christmas. I had a blast!!!! How was yours?. Our theme this year was RED. Thanks to the Todas' who does really want it to happen and at the end of the day it is actually about the family. And on a personal note, I like to thank those who are followers of my blog for your support and your willingness to spend your precious time to read my 'journey' especially Dorothy (whose reading because she is homesick!!!) and to you, you, you.....

The Toda's

Merry Christmas and a fruitful year 2011 ahead!!!

Happy Birthday gals!!!!!

2010-11-01T21:05:00.003+08:00

I can't believe it!!!! Megan turned 7 last Saturday. They grow fast. I, on the other hand is going towards my forties. I am at that time where I feel the needs of my kids are more important and I should mellow to the background.

With that thought in mind, I need to do a combine party for the kids and as usual, it will only be done end of November; when Ezra turn 9. As they grow the demand for all sorts of things overwhelm me!!!! Thank God they have only one mouth. At this age, I guess you are allow to be selfish - its all "I want this, I want that...", ignorance - it doesn't matter whether the parents can afford it and being working like dogs, unrealistic - like I will buy the Sony PSP when I, can't even afford to buy myself that Sony MP3!!!!

No matter what, I know I will throw them the 'biggest' party (by my kids' standard) and I shall enjoy doing it. So I would just thank my brothers and lovely sister; whom my kids adore so much for your up coming help in making this event a success one. :)

Take That!!!!!!!

2010-10-14T23:28:00.003+08:00

I am in an emotional wreck!!!!! Blame it on hormones....... or all the sad stories Fiona has been telling me. STOP IT, FIO!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sucker you!!!!!!

Actually it is not her fault. I find Fiona rather amusing sometimes. Although going through problems of her own (who isn't), she keeps my feet grounded and feeding me spiritual food and for that I thank you.

The Moth is involve with the TYT birthday's parade (this Saturday). So every morning since Tuesday, the kids and I will pick Dad up to send us to school and work, in Anddy's car. And for that 3 days; 45 minutes drive, I had to endure comments upon comments from him. If it wasn't for my tardiness for being late (not in one of those days the children were late!!!), it would be the way I parked, the route I took and even the traffic policemen.

Day 1 was ok. I told him to bear with me for another few days. Day 2, I told MYSELF to bear with him for another day. And today, the devil in me got loose.......

All I want to say is, "Dad, I am sorry for yelling and saying those words to you, but at that moment I feel nothing I did was good enough for you! It was soooo like you. I remember many years back, we were driving home; just the two of us; you were telling me how disappointed you are in me for not being able to go to local Universities to further my study and I remember I cried because I feel like I'd failed you - I was 19. That episode of life are always at the back of my head and it will replayed every time when ever the episode like this morning occur. It's ok now Dad. I am just sorry it happened and I want you to know that I still I love you because you are my Abba."

2 decades later, the bitterness surface. Maybe it's a good thing, now the inner healing should start. I always know that God has a purpose for me, even when I didn't further my study. I didn't want to. The desire was not there and I never regretted. That scroll would be nice - I don't think I need it to prove to man because by the end of if, it is He who provides and matter most.

Just to let YOU know, I don't hold grudges towards my own dad. The blood is thicker than water and no matter how disgusted we as children feel about it, we are the one that have to live with him. So dad, I pray that we will accept our differences, accept the fact that we need each other and that the good Lord will give you a good health and live to see Boy, Gigel, Bujang, Jaja and Girl graduate and walk the aisle........ Amen.

2010-08-16T22:54:00.004+08:00

I do not know how to tell you of my feeling nor do I know where to start. Never in my life have I received such adoration, admiration and pure sweet naiveness. I am talking about my son Ezra. When I came back from work last Friday, he shared that the Math's teacher slapped him just because he did not do his "vertical form" in his math's paper. He claimed he didn't cry, only that his eye near his cheek where the teacher left red fingers marked were a bit wet.... :(

I do not 'abuse' my children by slapping their faces. I do pull ears and canning them on their legs, butt even hands and palms. So when somebody else decided to leave their palm's mark on my kid's face, I get emo.... Who dare to slapped by baby.... I carried him in my stomach for eight months. I went through period of dizziness, nausea, bloated feet and face, water retention, morning sickness while carrying him yet it was such a joy knowing that he is the perfect gift given especially for me (James 1:17), a gift I've longed and prayed for. You are talking about my child, my beloved..

This was the issue that I actually wanted to raise during the PTA meeting. I've heard of this particular teacher's tantrum and I wanted it to stop before my kid had his share - he's not such an angel either.... I was actually wrong when I said PTA is not the platform. When it involves my child's education and his well being in school, PTA should be one of the channel to voice out concern. In stead they chose to be brought down by silly issues that even doesn't reflect unity - for example, last year they only did a ramah-tamah aidil fihtri and why? The answer by the vice president even amused me; majority of the student are Muslims. Duh!!!!!! Where is your sensitivity. This is not even a Sekolah Pondok or Sekolah Agama. This is a Missionary School, started by Christians who realised the needs and how important it was to educate the people be it Chinese, Iban, Bidayuh or even Malays and it was out of selfishness and an act of love. I can go on... Somebody please stop me....

I called the class teacher, who at first was very reluctant to take up my case. I understand from my boy, she did approached him to find out on his side of the story. That was on Monday and until today, I am still waiting for her call....

The thing that amuses me most are how our children take comfort, look-up highly and trusting us the parents to handle their problems. When my son found out that I will confront the teacher, he was so happy as if saying 'now she;s going to get it! You don't know who you are dealing with!. You are dealing with my mom - the Queen, the goddess in my household', then he was at peace....

I dread the day when I would not be able to be there for him, to help him solve problems and just letting him know - it's ok, I will handle this for you... But in the process I do hope I do not pampered the boy so much until he is so depended on me. I would not want to handicapped him like that. When that time comes, will he still look-up to me? Will he still sees me as his Knight in shinning armour?

I guess sooner or later it is I, myself that actually have to let go. As long as I still keep him under my wings, he would not be able to gain the strength to fly but until that time, I think I am happy to know such a creature so dependent on me. Let me enjoy that feeling because I know I will die a little bit every time I let go even though just a tiny bit.....

2010-07-31T23:03:00.002+08:00

My weekends is packed! I do not have time to just laze around now. Kids are demanding too. So, I guess I have to squeeze in whatever is left of my time.

So what's new?

Kuching Fest started today. It's near my office but I do not see myself going there because it is just too expensive but maybe I will bring the kids once..... Wouldn't hurt.

And the Kuching Regatta is on starting yesterday. I would love to see but hating the crowds and the jams.

Having something on with Fiona tomorrow so I thing I will call it A Day.

TGIF......

2010-07-23T17:32:00.003+08:00

I am still waiting for Fiona to finish work so we could go to Tarot and hang-out. Not as if I have nothing to do but sometimes spending times (and money) like this is a stress buster!! Besides, it's the weekends. I just got back from my 4 days leave. Believe me; I snoozed the whole day on Tuesday. I even skipped lunch.... LOL!!!!

Weekend is here. I shall say "What weekends?". With the kids schedules; I hardly have time for myself..... Am not complaining (try) since most of the schedules are my own doing. Here's to the next 20 years of sending off and picking up kids from school and activities..............

I am STRESS!!!!!!!!!!!

Do not ask me what, why ok. Just be there for me. Sometimes that's enough.

2010-07-14T21:03:00.004+08:00

That's the MOTH & Me @ Tanah Lot

I couldn't believe that a year has passed by since my trip to Bali. It was an exciting trip and looking back, I am amazed at how me and the MOTH survived "our crisis" and everyday I thank the Lord for providing and never letting us out of His sight. At times it was difficult and it still does but I believe at that one point when you feel the lowest, that is the time when you have to gather your strength and soar higher. We are living by His grace now, not because we have to but because we want and we NEED to and as long as we depend on our own strength we can never see Him working in us. So we are letting go......

On a lighter side, my friend, Fiona and I have been talking about how at our work place, all the front line personnel consist of those in their mid thirties and in 10 years down the road most of us will be in our late forties. Imagine being serve by grannies. I am not insulting for I speak of myself. Unfortunately, there is nothing I can do unless I resign; still the company might not replace me as at now we do have the man power and with evolving technologies they might do away with human touches. The only field available is in the sales team. I wouldn't want to do sales although I've seen, financially lives changed for some of those who is reaping the fruits of their sweat. I envy the fruits but not the sweat. I've joined loads of those.... Avon, Elken.... you know what I mean but I am just not meant for it. I am accepting the fact that I'll be a working ant for the rest of my life but hey, it pays the bills and feed mouths, so I am contented.

With effect from July 2010 the maternity leave was raised from 60 days to 90 days. Fiona finds that hilarious and as for me.... I am still hoping. I think it is ok for the government to do that but for a company that relies on manpower that produces high level of productivity, hiring women would be their last resort. Although the reason is more so that mother and baby can bond, giving time for them to nurture through breastfeeding and spending time together. Raising children is not easy these days. With both parents working, more depends on nursery, babysitters, playschools to take care of the children and only spend quality time maybe on weekends. Growing up then were more easy. Children were exposed to elements but parents were not scared. It's different now, sometimes I feel we live in fear. Fear for our children, no, fear for what might or will happen to our children and that makes things worsts. But you can't blame them for feeling like that.

If I am given that 90days to nurture, I would and hopefully I can go back to work again and do my best to "pay" my boss for their generosity. My point is if all bosses were to think $$$$$$ and refuses to acknowledged that indeed women play a very big role in our society then our society can never grow mature and we will forever fall behind. Sometimes when you react to that action of giving, you are actually receiving the blessing. And Women, please don't misused the trust and benefit. POWER TO THE WOMAN!!!!!!!!

Where 's my weekends........

2010-07-05T20:22:00.002+08:00

I am having Monday's blues......

This morning, the alarm didn't ring. It took us 10 minutes to get ready and we were on the road at 7.10am!!! and of coz the kids were late for school.

My weekends routine from now will be filled; driving the kids to their activities. I've enrolled Beth for piano lessons starting middle of this month and she will start class at 11.30am for an hour. After lunch, she will be off to the Girl's Brigade in church and only finishes at 5pm. Ezra has not decided/joined on any activities so far but I have to commend him for helping at Toda's Ark and Toda's Farm.

The MOTH has finally agreed on going to THE Church and I am very happy coz all my family members are there but I just wish the service starts early (8am). For me that time is neither there nor here...... The reality is when it comes to God, it is not about me at all....

I love routine and I value the fact that I go through my days systematically. Where am I heading?

The fact that I didn't do anything productively over the weekend, sucks!!!!

BUT, I finally bought a Note Book for myself but I was unable to go online yesterday. Imagine the stress and on top of that didn't managed to snooze....

My Kids.

2010-06-14T21:54:00.002+08:00

School holidays is going to be over by this weekends. At the beginning of it, I had so many plans but I guess as time flies, you wonder......

Anyway, I enrolled Ezra & Beth for the Bible camp last Friday at St. Faith. Unfortunately Beth had to be quarantined for the Hands, Foot & Mouth Disease - poor fellow. She was really looking forward to spending the night in church with the friends. As for Ezra, of coz he enjoyed himself.

They had a mini concert on Saturday night and we came late because the MOTH had to sent the little brother to the airport enrouted Kuala Lumpur. I missed the marching part but was in time to see the little boy singing and stomping his feet to the sound of the drums. At that time you cannot but feel emo - seeing the little fellow in-front singing when a few years back he was just MY little baby....

I believe that church plays a very important part in ones lives. They gives support, they teaches values that we requires and yes, they made me what I am today. I wouldn't be me if it wasn't for things I've learnt from my Youth involvement in church. Somebody ever tell me - "Let your kids be in church and most of your problems are solved".

When they were little, I used to bring them in a baby basket, then a stroller until they know how to behave. In spite of the loud music they seemed rather relaxed and I guess they grew up in this environment and I am pleased.

Then, I wanted Beth to learn Piano but really the timing is suck!!! So I guess I have to hold that thought.

I am working on a project at the moment (NO!!! it's not baby-making) but I can't disclose it yet. What ever it is, I do need your support. Until then.....

Seramat Andu Gawai.....

2010-06-06T22:37:00.008+08:00

Before I start, Happy belated Gawai Dayak to all my "kaban-belayan". Ngajih ka kita gayu guru gerai nyamai, lantang senang ngibun menua.

My family has the tradition of only having gawai eve dinner at my mom's place. This year because all my in-laws (from my husband's side) from outstation (KL and Miri) came back for the occasion; we decided to miss the dinner at Sri Ijah and headed to kampung instead.

And of cause, my mom-in-law managed to come up with a sumptuous meal for everybody. My only regret; I didn't take any photos of the occasion.

Another tradition is the visiting tradition. The family (I Meant :FAMILY; Dad, Mom, Ivy & hubby with 3 sons, Terry(sometimes), I & hubby, Ezra & Beth, Anddy & David & Snah.) We will sometimes go in two or three cars. Every year we always visit the same houses. Sometimes I wonder whether people find us annoying by visiting in a large group like that.

I do like the visiting tradition my family is doing because somehow the spot light wouldn't be on one person but a group as a whole and I feel secure about that. I meant - It open a door for me to know them well but not exposing myself too much. It is not a bad thing, It just gives me space!!!

Another tradition that we are trying to start is the gathering of the Sanub. Sanub was my dad's dad (my grand) so you get the idea. We had such fun!!!!! We were suppose to have one before Gawai but my uncle Sehat (dad youngest brother) father-in-law passed away a week before the occasion so they had to postpone it till next year. But that doesn't stopped my cousins (my dad's elder brother kids) for having our own private party. Check my face book with all the photos. These photos were taken at oe of those gathering last year.

My cuzsss and aunty

My uncles - Sanub's sons

What we made them do.....

What a week!!!!! So many projects...... so little time, I need a laptop. If only somebody can give me one. LOL!!!!!!!

Actually, I just came back from dinner@Sri Ijah. We had mee soup; as usual. I had Martini on the rock and they said I AM DRUNK!!!!!! LOL!!!!!!!!

My 2nd PTA

2010-05-23T21:06:00.003+08:00

yeah.... a mother's work is never finish. I went for my girl's school PTA meeting yesterday; as if I have nothing better to do - but the MOTH kind of got excited after attending my boy's PTA meeting a week before and would like to see how's this one will be.

As usual the response were very poor. The school has around 600 students but the only less than 40 parents were there. The teachers were there because it was their duty and they were not given the choice but for a parents to be there; well... it was a choice. I will try to make a point to attend this kind of meeting because it involves my children's well being - I want them to study in a conducive environment and I want to know what is going on in the school.

I have to congratulate the committee for doing a good job. They ran their activities well, garnered enough funds to help the school and the balance sheet were in order and fantastic. My boy's PTA should learn from my girl's PTA!!!!!

I had a good Sunday - with the Lord by my side, who wouldn't. I hope you had one too. Enjoy the 4days week ya.

Happy BDay Luv!!!!!!

2010-05-15T23:34:00.007+08:00

I hope it is still not late to published this. We had an argument a day before his birthday. It was about how much he spent on his first wife. We are tight and spending like that really worried me but I guess he is also right coz we rely very much on her, we need to really take good care of her. I just need him to tell me the truth sometimes. It was not so much about the money(even though it was the main contributor) but in being honest. I know he did it so; I wouldn't freak-out. Just throw it to me; I might retaliate but I will bounce back and be ok - we will be ok.

SOOOOOOO........ as the Irish put it:-

“May you never steal, lie or cheat. But if you have to steal, then steal away my sorrows. If you have to lie, then lie with me all the nights of our life. If you have to cheat, then cheat death because I don’t want to live a day without you”

Happy Birthday. We love you Maysun Redjo - wonderful husband to me and a caring dad to Ezra & Beth.

13th May 2010

ps - 1st wife - His car

2nd - His sports (soccer, futsal & badminton)

Sorry.....

2010-05-15T22:21:00.003+08:00

for the absence. Only when I read the news this morning that I had the itch to log-in again. Yeah.. Kenny Sia kind of reminded me that blogging use to be my passion. Don't know where I went wrong?. Time? I've been playing my kid's PC games (I am a wedding planner in Wedding Dash...). Story? I've been out and dining almost every week mostly with Fiona (yeah... I took some tasty photos).

I just ran out of ideas and I do feel I lack the presentation....

Anyway, I attended my first PTA today. I wanted to bring up some issues that I feel necessary. My son has been saying that his math teacher is not really approachable. The kids are so scared of her. Even to ask question.... I just feel that she should be more willing. I mean she threw books too. If you are a teacher and it is your duty to give your pupil the best you can give, to show them what they don't know. I think it is ones proudest moment when we teach a person and that person actually understand it. It's hard work, I realised; that's why I am not one.

When I reached the meeting I found that that is not the platform I can use to voice my concern about a teacher. So sorry Presscar, look like we need to find another way of solving this issue.

Anyway, one thing that I learned was, every parents should come to their children's PTA and get an insight of what's going on in their school. One may not be in the AJK (committee) but being an outsider is more fruitfull, at least you are informed and involved.

So the next meeting I am gearing up all my friends to be involved.

I am rested.....

2010-04-12T08:29:00.005+08:00

Today is the last day of my leave. What a week. It is not enough people. I wish I can go on leave forever and still get pay - dream on......

Did I tell you the MOTH managed to paint half of the wall of my living room. I AM happy even though I was a bit unsure about the colour at first. We have to put the project on hold.... I'll post the photo when we are done.

This photo was taken when he was half way doing it. I just want to show the difference.. I kind of like it. If we manage to finish the project I will let you know.

2010-04-01T23:48:00.002+08:00

If I have the power, I will try to make you happy in every ways I can - avoiding all the hurts, pains, unhappiness and hard ache. It will be a world of no stress and just pure bliss and happiness. We will go through life with no worries..... and we don't have to deal with silly and stupid issues that binds us to a point of breaking us.

But I am not God and I don't have the answer to your questions. I breaks sometimes but that doesn't make me any more weak. It is just life, you go through phases. You wouldn't know the cause of your action until you take that leap. Nobody says it is easy - it will pull you down, breaks you and you sometimes loose hope but you can count on the divine power that is more mighty, more powerful to hold you.

And after all that has been said and done nothing seems matter but HIM.

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2010-03-27T11:55:00.003+08:00

How do you measure a happy marriage?

Or even success for that matter. Does having loads of monies or materials things leads to it and does that really counts?

You must be wondering where I am going with this questions. Well…. I’ve been doing a lot of soul searching lately (pardon my absence; apart from having a corrupted PC, I have been busy being busy..).

I have a colleague who is still single and our goal for this year is to find him a good girl to marry. So that’s our target this year. So far he went to one(1) blind date. She was introduced by a kopitiam taukey to him; very nice and good girl (mind you, she’s a Pastor). Unfortunately, no spark flew during the date and I was the most frustrated one – as if…… I mean this guy ever told me the reason he is not committing himself is because he is afraid that he will turn out to be like most of his friends – Separated or divorced. It upset him so much; he gets cold feet when he thinks of commitment.

“For riches or for poorer, In sickness or in health, till death do us part…” Marriages… It is so sacred to me that I can’t even think my life without the other half. I believe in a marriage constitution, I believe in keeping and staying forever in ones marriages – until death do us part. I learn this from my own mom.

There was a period of time when I was the only one home with my parent and I’ve seen how at that time dad ‘ill-treated’ mom and she just could not do anything because Dad is ALL to her and she need to stay for our sake but I guess the truth was then women didn’t had the guts to say ‘that’s it, enough is enough, I am leaving you!!!’. I am glad Mom stayed and I am happy they found HIM in time to understand that although they gets on each other’s nerve they have a mission to complete and came to the realization that they will grow old together. That really requires a lot of patience but now she ‘tormented’ him by ignoring him when he is in one of those moods!!! Bravo mom.. Power to the woman…

One important rule I learn from Mom is quoted from the Bible itself. It says whenever you are angry, don’t bring it in until the sun set (Ephesians 4:26) – I tell you; it is easier said than done. But I will surely get it if she finds out I drag it. Love is not enough, people…. Even so much more – immaturities. Guys wake up!!! These are the era where women are empowered. They discovered they don’t necessary need a husband or a man in their life. They have learned to be independent, knowledgeable and some even brings the bread home. Think twice if you intend to flirt…….;) You know who you are. Don’t even think to give her a second grading in your list. She is the most important person in your life – not your car, your games or your pets!!! Cherish her, shower her with all the attention; she will appreciate it and when you have children, be the strength, the fortress, the foundation for your family. Be involved.

I don’t know which is harder, keeping a marriage or letting it go……

I heard this a few days ago. It is in regards of mending a relationship. “We don’t just make it stick (together) but we make it glued. If it still doesn’t stick that means the pieces doesn’t fit.”

I am sorry for my friends that had to let go… My heart goes out to you for I care and I believe you deserve the best of best God can give you. I was and still saddened by it so much. It is harder if you have kids; unless they have grown up and you are able to make senses.

I wouldn’t judge you. Do what makes you happy. For once, do it because it is for you – you deserve it. It wouldn’t be easy initially but like what I told you, gear up all your support system – some may not agree with what you are doing and when you are unsure don’t only depends on your guts feeling, look-up more to the divine intervention, have peace, pick up the pieces and go on.

I AM THE MOTH....

2010-02-18T21:30:00.004+08:00

It was such a good weekend for me and Monday and Tuesday being an extra holidays added to the fun. I didn't feel like going back to work but butter and bread have to be put on the table. My kids had an extra day off yesterday so I let them slept over at mom's so they didn't have to wake up as early as me.

I was pissed off with Ezra when he suddenly mentioned that he had not finished his homework. This was the second time; he rather lied than to spend his CNY break doing what he was supposed to do. Boys!!!!! I had to stayed up until nearly midnight just to help him. Believe me when I say their homework are so hard. I ever failed his math!!!!! and of coz he cried - I spanked him and although I felt guilty after that but I had to do it. I explained to him I love him that was why I had to discipline him. He is grounded for 2 weeks and are being refrain from going to Anddy's clinic which he and the sister likes to do every weekends.

He seemed to be able to take it and I am going to be more strict with them now. Lord, just give me the wisdom and the strength....

Alas; I am the Mother Of The House....

Happy Chinese New Year!!!

2010-02-15T23:16:00.002+08:00

Let's welcome the tiger!!!!. Needless to say; I was also busy this new year - busy eating!!!!!! Today is the second day of the tiger year. I spent half of the day feeding the rascals (I am trying to be a good mother..) Of coz, woke up around 9am upon hearing the MOTH leaving the house to help the mother in Kampung. He decided to leave the rascals with me coz it was raining. Poor kids, they didn't have breakfast before the father left. So searched the kitchen for things that I can possibly turn into something edible AND nutritious. Ended up making scones!!!!! Kids didn't fancy it. By the time they had breakfast it was lunch time. Emmmmmm so tired!!!!!!!! and I haven't taken my bath yet!!!!

Searched the kitchen again. I decided to cook mee hoon goreng. I had dried shrimp blended with red onion and chili, I had dory fish and broccoli and egg. Everything thrown in and walla!!! Kids loved it.

The kids were promised a swim by the uncle at Four Points. So around 5.30pm we went over. It was quiet......

I went over to tHe Spring to meet up with old friends. Unfortunately the place was so pricey we decided to go to Top Spot for seafood. Being the second day of CNY the only stall that was open were the Muslims. I am not being racist here but it was a very poor service, they cut throat, greedy and you just name it; you got it. I guess it happens every way during this time of the year.

I am sorry for my overseas friends; Hsioa Fern, Edward and baby Gavin who came all the way from Seattle, Jo from London, Angeline and hubby and Florence from KL and Aimee from Bintulu. I should have been a more proactive host.

Next trip, I will open my home to you and serve you all the food you love so much and didn't get when you are all away.

Have a safe journey home and hope to see you soon.

Bon voyage!!!!

2010-01-30T21:39:00.002+08:00

What do you know.... It's the end of January. See, I told you how time flies. Early Monday I took the day off cause I was not feeling well. What a start to 2010. The doctor diagnosed me with having asthma - that is not new. So I am on inhaler now. This morning I went to see him again because I was not sleeping well; for 3 days!!!!

I was thinking of a high pressure water jet. With Chinese New Year in two weeks, promotions are every way. My drive way is in dire need to be cleaned. By hook or by crook I told the MOTH (man of the house) to get one and one we got. Lets just wait when he can run those.

How time flies.......

2010-01-15T20:31:00.005+08:00

Before I know, I have been blogging for 2 years!!! I admit sometimes it is very hard to put stories on the blog. I am forever wondering whether posts I will be posting be interesting to those who willingly read my blog and sometimes I do feel that I need to give the best to those "followers". Thus came the long 'silence'. Then there will be days when I don't even know what to post and sometimes there just be merely laziness and Facebook that sidetracked me. Can you blame me?

Before I go on, Happy New Year 2010 to you. Resolutions? I wouldn't lie; I need to lose weight. This time around I have set a target. I want to be able to lose at least 10kg by December. I want to look good for my family photo which my brother schedule to happen before Christmas this year. Can I do it? We have to see.

*** photo courtesy Eric of Mushroom

This was taken 1 month after the birth of my daughter. I agree I was never a slim person but I have since gained extra load......

So how was 2009?

Personally, I had a wedding and two funeral........ and an addition to the family.

2009 was a turbulence year for me and my other half. It was a trial time. Financially it will be hard but I guess we are trusting God in that area and we have to put on hold some of the things we planned just so that we can just adjust.

I have never like changes.. because it exposes me to the elements that I can't control and when I can't control, I loose focus and when I am not focus nothing gets done. It applies to my every aspect of my life be it spiritually, career or monies. But I will have to also remember that; all that I have is the Lord, He provides for all my needs and nothing that I am lacking. I might not drive a big car but I get around, I might not eat KFC everyday but mom cook good food and I might not wear Chanel at least I am not naked and I sleep well at night.

I want to start my new year with a positive note. If over the last year(s) I've make you upset and I said things that may hurt you; accept my apology. Thus I am mere human. Please do not judge me because when you do, you are stereotyping me. I am not as bad as you think because I can be worst. Do not even try me because it will change how I look at you. I dare you!!!!!

That's it personally.

Besides that, I aim to do justice to "my dwelling place". I've been neglecting it for a simple reason - suddenly I have a baby in the house. My in-laws will bring Robin and stay with me. My own has grown-up; they make different messes. So as it is, I have to put all my plans on hold (iskh.... iskh.... iskh....). I hope this year will be different.......

Again, I try to separate myself from attaching so much on material things and anything that is not good for ones' soul. I need to patch-up with Him and that is the most important agenda this year. Forget slimming down, forget the house, forget the leads target. I need to focus my eyes upward.......

What about you?

Merry Christmas!!!!!

2009-12-23T23:01:00.002+08:00

Enjoy your holidays and remember the reason for the season..

and in case I don't log in by new year, I guess HAPPY NEW 2010 TO YOU TOO.

Thank you for supporting me this 2 years and maybe later I'll share with you my resolution for the new year.

HO! HO! HO!

xxooxx
Just Doli and will forever be Doli

Congrats!! Gabriel & Ritta!!

2009-12-19T23:25:00.003+08:00

Welcome to the club...
My advise: Enjoy your life together (Love like you have never loved)
Start to have kids maybe after 3 - 4 years later (enjoy your sleep now..)
Build your financial (you need it when the babies comes)
Strenghten your relationship with each other/parents/sibling/in-laws
(you will need them one way or the other)
Build your dreams together - go see the world, enjoy each other.

ShiokNya!!!!

2009-12-13T22:45:00.009+08:00

Did I tell you guys how I enjoy my weekends now? I get to wake up later, do things with my favourite people, get to see the 'world' more...... and next week for 3 weeks, we will only be having a 4days week. Now that is life.

I told friends that I am taking leave from dieting this month. So I had on one of that day, went over to Tomoe for another Japanese Pizza. Last Friday, I went to the 4 Points for buffet with colleagues plus Catherine who came back from the States months ago.

I enjoyed myself very much. They served Italian, Chinese, Japanese and it was sumptuous. I think so far they have the best menus; not as if I've tried others. If you like this buffet maybe you can try the Japanese Buffet at Riverside Majestic. A few weeks ago out of the blues Julia invited few of us to Meisan, Grand Margaretha. She felt like having BBQ Duck. Grand Ma was also having Seafood Buffet at that time. By the look of it - delicious too. Must try one of this days. Oh BTW, the duck was absolutely a must the next time you dine there.

During Ramadan, we tried the buffet at The Banquet.

That was sumptuous too. Emily kept saying, we should do this at a faster rate coz age is catching up and so are the diseases. Later we wouldn't be able to eat..... How true..

But besides the food I guess we enjoy each other company's. Give us another 5 years; see if we can still go and eat those food!!!

And the good news is; we are going to 4Points again on 16Dec09. This time we are eating for free!! Yeah!!!!!! The Boss decided to have a 'small' gathering there and at least this time we know where to 'attack' first. Am looking forward to that.

Happy Birth Day, Hayden Phildon!!

2009-11-22T22:10:00.004+08:00

We welcome the new addition to my husband's side of the family who was born to Phil & Senorita in Miri at 10am on 21st November 2009. Happy Birth Day Hayden!!!!

EXcuses, excuses, excuses......

2009-11-19T22:16:00.003+08:00

Hello..... My excuse for not updating is I AM BUSY and along the way, I forgotten my log-in password!!!!! I dread the day when I would not be able to tell my stories through this blog. JustDoli
is the rebirth of the sassy, savvy pc me. I hate to restart another blog if it were to happen. God forbid!!!

Anyway, my kids will be having their school break and I am happy coz my weekends are more meaningful - it's family time.

I would love to add but I am tired. Maybe I'll find time soon.

So until then; have a productive what's left of your week...

You're too fat to be a teacher, woman told.

2009-10-21T20:56:00.004+08:00

NewStraitsTimes.

2009/10/21

KUCHING: When Joanna Gilbert Asson was accepted for a postgraduate course at the Teachers Training College Rajang, she was beside herself with joy. But that joy was scuppered thanks to an insensitive senior official at the college.

Joanna, 29, claimed she was discriminated against when the man told her that she was too fat to become a teacher. She wants the Education Ministry to do something about it.

Joanna claimed the man told her: "You're fat. You can't possibly be a teacher. You look unhealthy, come back next year after you've slimmed down."

A business administration graduate from Universiti Tenaga Nasional, Joanna sat for an examination and was interviewed by a panel from the college on May 19.

After being told that she was successful, she reported to the college on June 22, accompanied by her parents.

She paid the RM300 registration fee, collected additional forms, including those for a medical test and waited for her turn.

It was then that the senior official called her into his office and told her she was fat.

"How can he judge me by my appearance alone? I have not undergone a government medical test but he was confident that I am sick."

Joanna said she went for a medical test at a private hospital before registering, but the college rejected the result because it was not from a government clinic.

In frustration, Joanna wrote to the ministry to withdraw from the course and for a refund of the registration fee.

"During the interview, nothing was said about my weight. They can see from the form that I am 110kg."

State Education director Dr Julaihi Bujang said the college official should not have acted that way but declined to comment further.

The Education Ministry's Teacher Education Division in Putrajaya could not be contacted for comment.

Emmm... what can I say. This girl is bigger than me but I understand the situation that she is in and I salute her for being able to stand up for this kind of "discrimination". She will have to,; first, prepare herself mentally, physically and spiritually in order to go through this ordeal. It is in my opinion like a "rape" trial (I am open for discussion).

As a FAT person, you are always in a different league of people. And it will always gets on my nerve when people 'arranged' their sentences as not to offend me. Please stop. I AM OFFENDED!!! but I had to pulled that straight face so YOU wouldn't be offended by the words that WILL come out of my mouth and believe me I can say a lot of nasty things(if it weren't for HIS Grace.)

I didn't care about it before. I ate because I just love food. Over the years I do realize that I want to live longer, to enjoy my life with my husband. I want to grow old with him, watch my kids grow up, being there when they fall in love; having puppy love, going to college, getting married, have my grandkids and so on... I have to be healthy for them and for myself. That's why I am watching my diet. I was sick last week. I had sore throat, body ache and I was not surprise when the Doc mentioned that my blood pressure was very high and I do felt it. He put me on medication instantly. I ever mentioned to my gynae that I watched my parents being dependent on this medications (both of them are diabetic and having high blood pressure) and I told him that I do not want to live a life like that. I guess he had his point when he said that the medications is what keeping them alive until today. Look like I have to take my medication as if I am taking my vitamins and supplements. My next leave, I am going for a medical check-up which I always tried to avoid. Hey!!! I want to live!!!!!

We are sailing!!!!!

2009-10-09T23:02:00.003+08:00

Ready or not we are sailing tomorrow. We are having the grand opening of The Toda's Ark Veterinary Center located at the Medan University, Kota Samarahan at 1010hours 10October09. If you are reading this, come and join, support us. It is a family effort, family business and we like to share our 'cruise' with you.

Sudi-sudi hadirkan diri.

I will blog about it after the event.

Thank you.

I should be paid for blogging these......

2009-10-05T20:38:00.005+08:00

Yeah..... I had the honor of having Fiona as my lunch partner again last week becoz somebody was on leave. Suddenly we had this urged for Japanese....

We always love to go to Tomoe; Jalan Mendu for it's pizza.. Don't ask me how to make it - I just eat. One thing I can assure you is that it is delicious and mostly veges..(healthy food). Now the pictures below were squid, chicken, prawn with veges. I don't know what they call it but it's yummy too.....

Enough about food.

Condolences to Marianna; my sister-in-law on the passing away of her beloved mother today at 9am@GH. May she rest in peace. Anna is Mayfri's (my husband's brother) wife and this happen when the family is still mourning for Ryan; Vivia's (my husband's sister) husband.

My heart feel the pain but you know, one thing that I've learn - It is alright to feel sad and to mourn. Sad because Robin will never know Ryan, sad because Mccollie would never hear her grandma's laughter and the voices that so familiar and who had took care of her from baby and mourning for Vivia who suddenly a widow and only been married to Ryan(who should have turned 30 yesterday) for less than 2 years and for Anna who suddenly lost her pillar and strenght. It's ok... but it hurt so much...........

A dog and a chicken.......

2009-09-27T10:13:00.003+08:00

This is Angela's Spike. He came in to the clinic yesterday for castration. It was the first time hubby help in the operation so I took this photo just for remembrance. I am no dog lover ok; I love cats but over the years my affection are more towards my own babies and not kittens or puppies. Anyway, the operation was done in less than 1 1/2 hours and by that time they were so messy.........

The enlightenment for the day was when a guy brought in his chicken for consultation......

It was funny....... I just had to tell everybody......

but again if it is something or some one's treasure and love so much; it doesn't make any difference, right; be it a German Shepherd or a Fighting Cock. So who's laughing now?

Service level

2009-09-23T21:09:00.002+08:00

We had just realized that Ezra need not go to school until next week. Ha!!! How 'sensitive' can one be.... Anyway, I got to do things that I need to do today and Am happy about it. Do you ever have the feeling that when you are so used to "Nearly Perfection" you wouldn't be happy with just ok - that was how I felt about the process of opening an account with local bank!!! But I refuse to go low to that standard so I am just going to leave that at this.

EPF...... emmmm service very fast but I feel my first contact should be more beneficial. I am talking about the receptionist. She should get all the form ready with her. I had to get a number and wait just to be given a form (by guy called Hardy), filled the form, went back to her again just to get another number to checked whether I filled it correctly, done so; went back to her to get another number just to be called by Hardy again to acknowledged my application.

At least I did all these before noon.... and the fact that Hardy was using baju melayu and in the spirit of raya; I refuse to go low to that standard and so, I am again leaving it at this.

Catherine is on her way back from the state (she's on the plane as I type..). She was there for 3 years and I just want to welcome her home and I can't wait to meet up with her...

Selamat Hari Raya...

2009-09-18T21:49:00.004+08:00

I'll be having a long break next week. I don't know whether I have time to do my personal things but I guess what ever it is, I'll make it a point to enjoy it. Selamat Hari Raya to all my Muslim readers and friends.

The truth.... (The Penan Stories)

2009-09-17T22:02:00.004+08:00

"If you have the time, do visit the Penans and write fairly about them... The reports on the sexual abuse of the Penans are not true."

- Datuk Daud Abdul Rahman (Assistant Minister in the Chief Minister's Office; Oct 19, 2008)

By A. Kathirasen (NST 13 September 2009)

MY heart goes out to the Penans.

Last month, I read that a group of Penans was starving. I was shocked. After all, this is Malaysia with the twin towers and beautiful Putrajaya and a prospering middle class.

I felt relieved when Ulu Rejang member of parliament Datuk Billy Abit Joo denied that anyone was starving.

Then, in the same New Straits Times report, he was quoted as saying the Penans at Long Tanyit and Long Kajang had had a poor rice harvest because the crop was destroyed by insects and monkeys.

He said there had always been a shortage of food because of logging activities, which were destroying the food source of the Penans.

Later, I read about a group of people, including from Peninsular Malaysia, making the arduous journey to the Kapit Division to deliver more than 10 tonnes of food to about 1,500 Penans.

The headman of Long Tanyit, Salu Ugat, was quoted as saying they were facing a serious food shortage.

This week, I read that allegations of Penan women and girls being raped and sexually abused by timber company workers were true.

A task force established by the Women, Family and Community Development Ministry last year has ascertained that at least eight girls and women had been raped and molested in the Baram district.

The task force's 111-page report said schoolgirls were very vulnerable to sexual abuse because they depended on timber vehicles to transport them to and from school. Otherwise, they would have to walk for hours or not go to school.

On Friday, the head of the Criminal Investigations Department in Sarawak, Senior Assistant Commissioner 2 Huzir Mohamed was quoted as saying:

"We need the names of specific victims, where they can be found, more accurate information on the dates and places of the incidents and descriptions of the people who had committed these (sexual crimes).... The ministry must furnish us with more details."

Hmm. I always thought it was the job of the police to get such details. The report certainly raises questions about police investigations into the rape allegations.

But, more than that, it is about the attitude of Sarawak leaders towards their people.

When the Bruno Manser Fund (BMF) revealed the allegations on Sept 15 last year, Deputy Sarawak Chief Minister Tan Sri Alfred Jabu was quoted as saying, on Sept 25, that the claim was baseless.

"Show proof," he cried. "Tell us which Penan settlement. I have not heard of such complaints from the Penan community leaders in my many visits to Ulu Baram."

Hmmm. Maybe Jabu needs to make more visits.

He also dismissed the BMF as a "bunch of people who are nothing in their own country but like to sensationalise events elsewhere".

On Friday, he said he believed the Penans were manipulated by Western non-governmental organisations into telling lies to the task force.

Hmmmm. I pity Jabu. But then, this is the malaise of many in authority. The first reaction to any negative news is to reject it, or to ascribe an evil intention.

The task force's report also pointed out the problems faced by the Penans, such as a lack of access to healthcare and education.

It added: "All these issues are closely related to imbalanced development. The lack of infrastructure such as roads and public transport make it difficult for the Penan to communicate with the outside world, including government agencies."

Therein lies the problem. If schoolgirls have to depend on timber lorry drivers to get to school, incidences of sexual abuse will continue.

And it is not just the Penans who are out in the cold. There are also other tribes and groups, such as the Sabans, most of whom still don't have any documentation to even show they are Malaysians.

Perhaps politicians should make more frequent trips into the interior areas; at the very least, they will get more vitamin D.

Sarawak is a rich state. Surely its politicians can accelerate the distribution of the fruits of development to a wider populace; surely, it's time to ensure no child has to walk for seven hours to get to school; surely it's time to ensure no sick person has to travel hundreds of kilometres -- on foot and in timber company vehicles -- to get treatment.

If logging activities are causing misery to their people, then Sarawak politicians have an obligation to attend to them; if loss of native customary land is the problem, then it is incumbent upon the leaders to resolve the issue. People should come first, not profits.

And they can start with the Penans. Don't forget, they are Malaysian citizens, too. The Sarawak government must show it has a heart.

R.I.P Ryan Daniel........

2009-09-12T23:42:00.004+08:00

It's a sad night because we just lost one member of our family. He was my brother-in-law, Vivia's (my husband's youngest sister) husband. He died after complaining of tiredness while playing football. He left behind his wife, his son (barely 2 years old), his mother, a brother and a sister with their families. He was to be 30 years old next month and they have only been married for 2 years.

I made entry on the birth of his son, Robin Ryenson dated January 15, 2008 and I published some photos of them together in my entry dated March 23, 2008.

Although you will be missed but we know you are at a better place. Rest in Peace Ryan.

I am back!!!!

2009-09-03T23:11:00.002+08:00

I just got the PC fixed and I like to let you guys know that I am back and I will be posting some items soon. My schedule are pack this week. Over the weekend I will be busy at Anddy's clinic and there's the Parish's Sale that I need to go to. So guys..... Catch up with ya later.

Cao.

Sematan Palm Beach Resort.

2009-08-18T22:13:00.006+08:00

That was where we went for a short break. I loved it and so did the kids. I never knew the place until a colleague posted it on her Face Book. They have been in business for 5 years now.

It is located at Sematan... I think I just share with you guys the photo....

The Magenta

We had this chalet that has 1 queen size bed on the ground floor and 2 single bed upstairs. The kids really love the concept.

Having tea before going to the beach.

These are view from our chalet.

The dinner... not bad but varieties would be nice. We had spaghetti too.

Breakfast...

more photos...... check my FB

The weekend's over..

2009-08-16T22:13:00.004+08:00

...but my leave will start tomorrow. Planning to get out of town with the family. Will keep you posted of the place; in case you'll stalk me (yeah, like that's going to happen).

I must say even though Kuching is blast with activities; with the H1N1 and the Haze I am avoiding crowd places. Thank God for the rain so we had few days of clear sky and fresh breath of air.

A friend of mine is tying the knot after years of courting and dating. I am so happy for this couple yet I can't reveal their names coz it will be a surprise for a few people out there who might know them and who might be reading my blog. So until then; I am zip-up about it.

What makes a marriage successful? I am not trying to be Madam-Know-It-Al nor am I trying to act as if I have a perfect marriage. Sometimes you just wonder; why and I land myself in this situation. - These questions will manifest itself especially when one is having some kind of tension in their marriages. No, I am not having problems with mine (ya, true he need to be told to mawn the lawn every month; to get somebody to service the aircond every now and then or to get my washing machine repair for the thousand times!!!) - we argue about money all the time, so does other couples. Believe me, your marriage is not a normal one if you don't face this situation.

Early in my marriage, I always complain to my beloved because he will chose football, volleyball or badminton over me. Even his car gets more attention then me. I remember when I delivered my boy (2pm 25 November 2001), I was expecting him to be there when I was out of the delivery room - he wasn't. He only showed up later, late evening and not until few days after that I found out he was actually having a game; and there I was delivering 'His" baby- marah, tidak......

Now, I'll be happy if he were to bring the kids out for his games - be it football or badminton. Then I can have"peace"............

Guys, you need to accept that two of you are not perfect. When you enter in to this 'agreement' it was for poorer or richer, in sickness or well being until death do us part..... and the agreement is not only between the two of you; moms, dads, brothers, sisters.....; sealed with God's blessing.

My advise; bring God into your marriages. There will be tough time but it's not where you are going that is important but what you gain. experience and feel along the journey that is more fulfilling.

Finally, Saturdays........

2009-08-08T16:49:00.006+08:00

I have not being so looking forward to Saturday until today. Megan has been telling me to go to stall B1 first before we look at other stalls. I am talking about St. Faith's Parish Sale which was this morning and of coz the B1 stall were mend by her Kindy's teachers who without failed, notice us...

Why are charity sales so expensive? I know they are for good cause but they literally throat cutting!!!!!

Anyway, that is not why I like this Saturday and next Saturday and the next Saturday and......

This is one of those Saturdays that I have the other half with me and the children. Work made him missed out on our time together. For 6 years I watched him go to work and feeling sad for it. As demand of it soar and got bigger so did his blood pressure, liver problem, hypertension and of coz his hair lines!!!! He stayed because of commitments and just because WE needed the money.

Things turned for worst when his own boss didn't care enough to cover for him except for their own asses and he was transferred to Kuantan!!!!!!! That was the final blow for us. The moment he uttered "I quit"; it was as if a heavy load were lifted from MY OWN shoulder and after so many years, despite knowing we will have to survive on what ever resources we have, I cried cry of joy.

I met my husband when we worked together... When the company reconstructed and had to let go some of the work forces we decided that it'll be better if I were to stay and he opted for the Voluntary Scheme. I never failed to blame my self for this decision although we agreed and soon after he was with this outsourced company. He had ups and downs but towards late last year - management changed and he just didn't have the support he needed. So that was it.

We are trusting God with our lives. We are learning to accept God's grace rather than doing it with our might, and guys... we will be ok. Pray that we be strong and able to see God......

Time flies.......

2009-07-31T23:16:00.004+08:00

..especially when you are having fun. The only thing I disliked about Bali were it's excessive charges on almost everything including the toilet!!!!! No doubt my favourite words were "Gratis ya Pak/Bu".

We stayed at JatiHomestay@Ubud. The package included a pickup service from the airport. So in a way we got to know the family who runs the business. Dewa was the son of the JatiHomestay. Ubud is a district that is well known for it's painting; so we stayed in a painter house and of coz he has lots of eye catching painting that I somehow missed to admire becoz of simply didn't have the time to spare.

Dewa arranged the tour himself... He brought us to many, many, many temples. Only by the end of the day we realised it so it was too late to visit other places. These are points to remember if you wish to tour Bali; 1 or 2 temple are enough. Bali offer so much more....

JatiHomestay .. the feeling so familiar.. just like kampung.

We even had a view of padi field...

Our breakfast and the view.....

The entrance

We stopped at a coffee orchard and
were served various type of coffee; Dewa in stripes.

Life in Bali is... relax. People seemed to have a lot of time in their hands. Of coz tourism is the heartbeat of the economic and everybody seemed to be running their own business be it food, home stay, art.... and the best part is they run the business from their own home so it is no wonder you can't find shop houses like in Kuching and the can take time to do things they like. How I wish I can do that.

Every family is a community them self. They stay together in one big area - macam a gated-community. This photo is the view from the stair why I stayed. You can see several houses.... They are all family.

The things I will do differently the next time is maybe to stay near the beach.... be pampered with massages and have a light and easy trip......

I can't say the same for Jakarta. The city are busy with traffic and polluted; like KL but I was a millionaire!!!!!!! It's a shopping haven - I love Mangga Dua!!!!! Didn't do much; but definitely will come back.....

WOWWWW!!!

2009-07-11T12:41:00.015+08:00

I came back a week ago. It was a tiring but fun journey. We left for Jakarta at 12.55am on a 30thJune and arrived at Jakarta Airport (Cengkerang Airport) at 1.45am Jakarta time (-1 hour Malaysia time). Our flight to Bali- Denpasar was at 6.45am so we agreed not to book any room but to wait at the T3 Airport (Indonesia for Inbound flights within its region). For all first timer; there is actually a free chartered bus to bring you from International Airport to T3 so don't take the 'kereta sapu' coz they charged IDR70k to IDR80k for a 5 minutes drive.

Dawn in Jakarta T3

Hubby managed to snooze...

We waited and managed to get some food to eat, more like an early breakfast at T3.

We ate here

and ate that.

The food are similar with what we have back home; lots of spices and a bit 'tawar' for me. I must say the people is just like us. Corruption every way; the rich become richer and the poor still very poor - that is in Jakarta. It was a different story when I reached Bali.....

I felt in love when I saw the island......

I felt in love with the culture, the places.....

It's people....

It's food...

Ok that's it for now... I will share some more when the next time.

Hoorahhh!!! The day finally here!!!

2009-06-30T15:28:00.004+08:00

Hey!!! I just want to let you know and I'm packing to go for my long deserve vacation........ Will of coz let you know all about the trip. SOOOO..

Jakarta & Bali!!!! Here I come.....

Another merry making session!!!

2009-06-21T10:55:00.004+08:00

We had another celebration at Kuching Park@20th June2009. It was my Uncle Henry 70th Birthday Bash and of coz all family members tried to attend. Uncle Henry is my dad's eldest brother. We had fun as usual.

We had games... and in this game the wife get to dress their spouse.
In this photo; Uncle Richard Kunji - dad's fourth brother.

Mom (behind) was just too happy to ridicule dad.....

That's Uncle Henry

Hubby and me....

With brothers and sisters.

The wedding countinue.........

2009-06-17T21:11:00.013+08:00

Ok, I am a bit disappointed because I couldn't get a good video or photos on my phone during the dinner. I was busy with the reception desk. Asked hubby to take but it is not that umpphhh. You know when you take photos, one look and you feel the ooohhhhhhh... Some people just failed to capture that but I have to thank Stella for giving me some hope.....

Any way, I know I looked stunning that night.... What about you?

We had fun that nite and I sure hope you did too. The guests accommodating when the couple came in around 8pm... (memang wedding couple suppose to do that - they are the raja sehari.) The decoration by Emil were something to shout about and he sang too. I think pictures paint a thousand stories.....

Groom & Bride's parents

Main table; Four Point by Sheraton

The Entrance

Bride's dad playing the Sape....

Bride's mom danced to the sound of Sape

My mom and dad just dance.......

Emil sang.....

We danced even Poca-poco....

Yours truly with the other half and the Raja Sehari

My sister Ivy and I... All ends well.....
(we still have 2 more wedding to plan in the future)

I have always love weddings and from my experience I can share with you some of the dos and don'ts but for this time around I am going to leave it at this. Again, I had fun doing it so the next big thing is to anticipate is to welcome my new niece or nephew; God's willing........(Jangan tunggu lama-lama, umur dah semakin.......)

****some photos courtesy of Stella, Yon, Ivy's
check out our Facebook for more photos.

2009-06-06T18:32:00.025+08:00

Wooow people!!!! I've made it!!!!!!! but first of all I like to to wish all my Dayak friends Seramat Andu Gawai/Selamat Ari Gawai, Gayu Guru Gerai Nyamai Lantang Senang Nguan Benua. For those of you who hasn't got the slightest idea what I am talking about; Wikipedia ok.

We are done with David and S'nah's wedding and I do admit I like doing this project. Amidst all the tension, the vulgar words thrown out(out of frustration), the tiredness I still enjoyed it. Now that that's over, I don't know what to do with my life, my weekends...... Maybe now I can make my house more homely eh..... or like Fiona said, I can concentrate on losing those extra pounds.

It has been a wonderful experience to plan this wedding with my brothers and especially with my sister-in-law; Snah. David had never really in a relationship - not that I knew of. I knew
girls were interested but he had always being the cool guy... but one thing for sure, he has always had his eyes on the Orang Ulu girls.... (anybody like to comment)

I remember that day; Mom and Anddy were away@Pelagus. I was surprised to see Abba tagging along with David and one girl@my doorstep. I knew he was serious with this one when he brought her to my house. It didn't take them long to decide; so after the December2008 engagement, the wedding was set on 30th May 2009 (check my previous post for the engagement story).

We anticipated with joy. The last wedding in the family was mine which were 10 years ago and it was no fun coz my siblings were either too young to share the excitement or were away in Sabah/Serdang (during the preparation).

First, discussion with Reverend Trevor. Then, date was set, venue for the dinner where chosen.

Four Season by Sheraton when we first set eyes on it....

Invitation cards were distributed...

Pre-Wedding photos were shot as early as February09

Rehearsal was done the day before....

The Deco in church were by Emil of Emil's Garden; theme -
Gawai Wedding Fusion. Marvellous darling, simply marvellous!!!!

And on the morning of 30thMay2009
at Seri Ijah, Jalan Wan Alwi......

Ezra & Johnathan as Ring Bearer.

Megan as one of the Flower Girls

The men in Toda's family; all looking thier best in white..

Suze doing Karen(Flower Girl) and
Ruth (Bride's Maid) preparing herself

Bride kena make-up...

The stunning and beautiful bride before going down the aisle.

IN CHURCH - the excitement build-up.

Yours truly with Groom's brother and Ring Bearer

The Groom and Best Man.

The Bride's and Groom's dads.

Those that turn-up to give 'moral support'.

The arrival of the Bride..

OK, I want to inform everybody that these videos were taken with my hand phone. I am not a professional videographer but my intention to share is good; so be it; enjoy bits of it...

This is the wedding march but the other guests and photo/videographers' presence were overwhelming and I have to be satisfied with this shots.

This are covers of church's programmes

The rings that binds

The Giving away.....

The kiss....

The Communion...

Mr & Mrs Davidson Toda

Sharing.....

David & Snah together with parents

1 for the album. Welcome Snah to the Toda's clan!!!!
(From Left: Sulau, Nigel, Terry, Nevin, Toda, Ezra, David
Snah, Maysun, Elizabeth Ijah, Anddy, Megan,Ivy, Dolly & Neville)

I have more photos and stories to share. These are just half of it. I will up load some more. There are more photos shown on families and friends FaceBook, so you might want to check that out too. So until then..

Caoo..

Whatsssup...

2009-05-24T09:59:00.002+08:00

Sorry.... Too much projects to handle and I know I have not updating anything on this blog but rest assure I will be back with loads of stories to tell. Amongst the projects were birthdays...... and the up and coming is the wedding of my brother; David to S'nah (I will tell.....) Then, there's Anddy's project which will run aggressively after Gawai (I forgot Gawai) then I will be travelling and taking my well deserve break which is also my 10th wedding's anniversary gift.

So, hold your horses people. I'll be back.

$$$$$$

2009-04-30T00:08:00.002+08:00

The car broke down again!!!!! I think I get him to consider buying a new car. He just came back from towing the car with ND and Igat and NO!!!! the battery is not low....

Hey!!!Good News everybody.... I lost some ounces... It is not sufficient but it is a progress. Right now I need to get my beauty sleep; so catch you later.

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2009-04-26T15:24:00.002+08:00

Lately, my fingers are stiff!. It seems that I am at lost of words. I lost ideas on what to write. That's why most of time there is no update in my blog. I feel life is passing by so fast and just a few weeks back I was awaken by a call of 'death' - sound so serious... yes it is that serious.

It made me evaluate all aspect of my life - financially to spiritually and of coz if you are at the brisk of death you look at spiritually most. If you are a follower of my blog than you would have guess my problems and of top of that the same week I sprained my ankle and dad simply diagnosed it as Gout!!!!!! I wouldn't know coz I didn't let a doctor confirmed it - and it is for a simple reason; I am so afraid to know the truth!!.

So my contingency plans now is to loose some weight, exercise and try to eat healthy. If I can shed some of that fat, I will let you know and I promise myself - I will go for a medical check-up.

My Leave

2009-04-13T22:08:00.007+08:00

I am off until Wednesday. I visited Carol who gave birth to Chris Abner last Monday. I just love the smell of babies - don't you all?. I know 'making baby' were supposed to be my agenda for year 2008 but I guess God just said wait so who am I to rebel; at least I have a pair. See how peaceful he look......

Anyway it was suppose to be a light and easy day for the four of us. The children are having Easter Monday off and the parents happened to be on leave.

We went to Roki to extract Ezra bad teeth. I was afraid for him but he proved himself... and I am so proud of him. I managed to take a photo before Roki attended to him and the rest were history but a word of advise to 'young' mother - feed your kid before going to dentist becoz he was hungry but couldn't eat - my mistake. I just hope my dad don't find out about this.

Tomorrow we are planning to do our passport. When I look at my passport photo I am just 'heran' how I aged and 'grown'. My hubby even commented that he married the girl in the photo!!! iskh.... iskh.... iskh.... I wanted to share the photo but thank god I don't have a scanner at the moment. Seriously... I gained so much weight over the last 10 years even the doctors said that I am the perfect candidate for a heart attack, diabetic, high blood pressure...... I bought my jogging shoes a couple of months ago and only used it once. I am not putting any blames on anybody but myself.

On lighter days at the office, if we managed to finish work early, Fiona and I will always make it a point to brisk-walk.... to Coffee Bean.

I just love the Oreo Cheese Cake... yummy..yummy (no wonder......). This is just to let Cat know what we have been up to. No wonder I seems to have difficulties in shedding those kilos..

Why oh...why.....

2009-04-10T20:54:00.002+08:00

Today is Good Friday. What is so good about it? The world is so much full of suffering - sometimes it make you wonder whether life is worth living. It is more intense when the suffering involve people around us; who are dear to us; our family. You are more protective of these criteria of people because they are simply the people we love and we do anything for them, shield them from things that might hurt them and would even die for them without even asking anything in return. It's the purest love of all. Sometimes when I look at my children I marvel, the words they spoken, the actions they made and the laughter.... It made my labour-pain worthwhile. Where am I going you may ask? That's the story of Good Friday.

Jesus' Crucifixion - A Violent Portrayal (from the Passion of the Christ) of the Easter Story

Palm Sunday

2009-04-05T21:30:00.015+08:00

Before you know it, it's Monday, again. But thankfully enough I managed to do some of the things that I was suppose to do ages ago, thanks to Anddy and Ivy. We went places on Saturday in anticipation of David's wedding - I am the wedding planner, remember. Actually I didn't do much coz most of the items has been taking care by S'nah so I tagged along lah. I guess now is the best time to distribute the invitation cards.

Suddenly I feel that I have too much projects in my hands - I am not complaining but I feel I am abandoning my house......my home sweet home.... I am suppose to prioritise... Suddenly things and appliances in the house need my attention. My washing machine died on me many moons ago. I made arrangement for repair but it seemed like the handy man 'malas' to show up - now I have to to do my laundry at mom's and I think mom is also wondering why I inflicted myself with this kind of suffering...... Then suddenly my lights in the living room failed me too and I have a spider in my bathroom which hubby killed last night. Thank God for my father in law who managed to mow the lawn or else you would not be able to see my house.

It's Palm Sunday today and I was in church with my family. Normally you would not be seeing me around church on big days like this. I just feel sometimes people are just hypocrites and I don't wish to elaborate coz it might backfire. It was the children who got me excited because they themselves were already looking forward to waking up early ( as early as 6am) to join daddy in the Palm Sunday Mass.

And as usual, one should see beyond the reason for the season. It's not the church nor it's congregation. It's even bigger than the crossed palm that we received. So friends.... prepare yourself.....

Earth Hour

2009-03-29T22:44:00.002+08:00

So... How was your 1 hour of darkness?

It was an event that I and my whole family were looking forward too. We planned it a few days before and told the children in anticipation to joined in the fun. We planned of candle lights, of BBQ and of watching the Akademi Fantasia - sure, I follow that; if I could.

My Saturday started with laundry. Ezra was having his replacement class so Beth and I had a girl's day. Anddy picked us up by 1.30pm and we went over to mom's. By then Ezra was already back from school and together with Abet we were off the St. Mary's to try to make full use of the RM40 fair tickets that mom simply had and forgotten to use. And of coz it was too late ......

I was at the Daily Choice Food (Tabuan Jaya) pay line when this woman 'potong' queue. The thing that upset me the most was not becoz the cashier didn't ignore her but bcoz although the woman knew of my present, she 'ignored' me. And of coz I don't look like Tai-Tai but even so everybody requires respect no matter what and how you look like. To that woman I would like to say that you are rude and I hope your children will have that kind of treatment from other people becoz I always believe what goes 'round comes 'round. I have said my peace........

I enjoyed the food that nite though; BBQ - chicken marinated with black pepper, salad, BBQ sweet potatoes and sambal buah belimbing...... Then everybody wait in anticipation for 8.30pm.

I do hope everybody enjoyed their dark hour like I did and it was for a good cause too. Hope we can do it again and the knowledge my children gained from it was priceless.

2009-03-21T12:44:00.002+08:00

I just got back from pampering myself; 2 hours of doing my monthly facial. Sometimes I feel it's such a drag but hey, I am entitle to the pampering too. It just too bad I didn't have the time to do the body massage...

The Saturday is here again and I am just waiting for my Anddy to come and the two of us will have some 'property hunting'. A moment ago Snah SMS and this evening we will run through the wedding's programs. Did I mentioned about their photography's sessions (yeah yours truly took leave just to witness it).

It was interesting, fun and enjoyable day - for me too.

The photos were fantastic....

but sad to say they can only choose limited (to their horror). I would like to advise any couple who is getting married and wanting to do your photo shoots - It all sound sweet when the sales man selling something; the most important thing is to know what you want out of it, read between the line. And when you feel sad that you cannot choose the ones that you like, just remember in 10 years time all these photos will be tucked in your drawers and it will just only be a photo albums. Hey... at least you took some, right. So don't worry enjoy your life together not your photographs together.

I got to go. Anddy was here and I need to pick up my hubby.

Until later.

Emmm what else?

2009-03-17T23:13:00.002+08:00

Sorry guys, busy chatting with frinds@Facebook. I leave you with this:.

Only great minds can read this.
This is weird, but interesting!

fi yuo cna raed tihs, yuo hvae a sgtrane mnid too
Cna yuo raed tihs? Olny 55 plepoe out of 100 can.
i cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it dseno't mtaetr in waht oerdr the ltteres in a wrod are, the olny iproamtnt tihng is taht the frsit and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it whotuit a pboerlm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Azanmig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt! if you can raed tihs forwrad it

FORWARD ONLY IF YOU CAN READ IT.

I'll be back..

Cao

Facebook.

2009-03-05T23:17:00.002+08:00

I have not been updating this blog for a very simple reason - I am hook to Facebook!!!!!
What is this program; that makes you feel like adding more friends and you get the satisfaction on knowing you have more friends than the others..... Sucker!!!!! and the games.......

Well, I promise in a couple of days I will update you mainly on David's wedding's preparation, my HfF outing and of course the economic tumult which is scaring me.

As for now, I need my beauty sleep ( but not before checking my FB)

Happy Valentine's Day 14February2009

2009-02-13T23:46:00.003+08:00

It's a big day today. Ma & Abba and Ivy & Sulau will renew their marriages vows this morning at St. Faith's church. I thought it will good for me and hubby too since actually we are in our 10th years of marriage but he had to go for a course; so...... maybe next year.

How can I describe it......

It was hilarious

It was interesting

It was fun and funny

It was beautiful.

You don't get the chances of seeing your mother and dad or sister and brother in-law saying the marriage vows again and what was more interesting; a couple who has been married for more than 40 years renewing their vows....

Mr & Mrs Toda

Unfortunately, I don't have the photos of Mr & Mrs Sulau (so Bee, you know what to do)

photo of Mr & Mrs Toda courtesy of David Toda

REST IN PEACE AKIK....... A tribute to Henry Jeom.

2009-02-08T21:24:00.006+08:00

We buried Akik today. He was the closest I get to having a grandad. He died peacefully at 4pm on Friday after 2 months battle with cancer. Ironically, he was diagnosed and admitted on the 2nd anniversary of his beloved wife's passing too.

I never known my real two grandads but it seemed that this grandad of mine who regarded my mom and dad as his own was always around when I was growing up. He was the reason we 'balik kampung' during Gawai or Christmas. Now............

What can I tell you about My 'Akik'. I didn't know much about him but I know he was always there on every important days in my life. I didn't have any close relationship with him but knowing that I can looked up to him to be an elder in my life was just enough. He was family, he was my grandad, the only one that accepted us as we were, opened his life, his house and his entire family to us and I loved him for that.

My only regrets is not being there when he was hospitalised and going through the ordeal of fighting the sickness. Honestly, I just couldn't bear the thought of him dying and that he had limited time with us. I didn't want to cry in front of him and I know it was even harder on all his children especially Aunty Linda and his grand daughters Emma and Michelle.

My prayers with you Akik; kiss Inek when you see her and you will be missed until we meet again.....

Obituary - courtesy of Borneo Post 8thFebruary 2009.

Happy Birthday Ma!!!

2009-02-03T23:15:00.008+08:00

Ma turned 62 today. What will I do without her and everyday I just thank the Lord that I still have her here with me, even if it's only for selfish reason. Let me tell you a bit about my "Ma".

Ma - during her single days

She is a daughter to the late Siba from Bukit Aup, Sibu who married my grandma Mengan (my daughter is named after her) from Batang Rejang, Kapit and named Ijah. She is the youngest (I think) out of many brothers and sisters from many marriages from both 'grands'.

Fortunately, she was given the basic education during the British era and one of those Iban girl who managed to find work, moved out of poverty and made it in a 'modern' world. She worked with the Agriculture Department in Semenggok. I don't know how she met Dad but they ended up together and raised the five of us in Sibu.

I think she was dating here - with her best fren I only knew as Indai Tupa

Ma raised us the best that she can and single handed too coz then Dad were always away fighting the communist in the jungle. She had helped from nearby neighbour and we are friends until now(We even have a malay family as our 'family' too - Mak & Bapa Eli).

That's Ma, me, Abet, Anddy and Mak Eli....(Background was our first car)

I thought I had a hard time growing up because I always have this feeling that Ma loved, liked, sided my elder sister more than me and I always have hands downed or second hand items. It bothered me coz I felt like second best. One incident which I remember was when she sew a bed sheet for her and I threw tantrum so she had to used the leftovers material; patched and sew together - lagi I threw tantrum.

She joined me in one of those cute babies contest and I won third prize.

But, I just love to see her dressing up for events. Being an officer's wife she was involved with activities like Perkim or just parties at the Officer's Mess. She will dressed-up put her best front and I enjoyed watching her. She was so beautiful and I always wished that I can find my own 'Officer's' and dressed up for parties like Ma.

I have outgrown those phases and I realized the best thing that Ma taught me and my sibling was to be independent; to have that motto 'Berani buat berani tanggung'; the heck with what people says as long as you know the truth....and that blood is thicker than water.

So Ma, thank you for having us in your life, for taking care of us; young and old, even though money is not everything I wish I have more of those so that you do not have to work so hard; cooking, doing the laundry and taking care of the children ( big and small). I love you Ma for the very simple reason - you are our Tower and our Refuge.

Happy 62nd birthday Ma. May the Lord give you all the happiness, joy and love He can give a mom. We love you.....

Woww.... I just love fire works!!!!!

2009-01-26T01:28:00.008+08:00

Chinese New Year Eve was different this year. Although I didn't managed to get my boy to watch it with me, I managed to get my daughter this year. We were shouting with oohh and ahhh, it was a sight to behold and it was fun and I am just sorry that the government banned this Chinese tradition. Accordingly, Chinese believes the noises from the fire crackers can "chase" the evil spirit or any bad elements on the new year and I for one tolerated this culture for few nights in a year all my life. I didn't mind because it's my neighbours' culture and I in return will expect the same from them. I will joined-in in anticipation and would dragged everybody out to watch. I enjoyed it.

NOW, on what ground does a government decide to ban the culture, way of living or even how we call our God? Is the ban applicable only when it applies to certain issues that only involve certain "party"?

I like to share a view from fellow country man that make sense to me. This is a letter sent to Malaysiakini. (http://www.malaysiakini.com/).

'Allah' ban: We Muslims not easily 'confused' Abdul Rahman |
Jan 23, 09 5:10pm

I refer to the Malaysiakini report Ministry to probe Herald's use of 'Allah' despite ban.

As a Muslim, I find it quite incomprehensible why the home ministry or government - as exemplified by our Home Minister Syed Hamid Albar - keeps talking about banning the use of the word ‘Allah’ by people of other faiths. If I'm not wrong, besides the Catholics, the Sikhs also have laid claim in that they use this word in the context of God. And I've also seen it being used by people of other religions when I was in Indonesia or in the Middle East. No Muslims there make any fuss over it. Why in Malaysia does the government makes such an issue over it?

If it is true that this word has been used by people of other faiths and that it was used even in the pre-Islamic era, then what is the fuss of it being used to describe God? Also if it is true that the terms ‘Allah’ has been used by other faiths for centuries in Malaysia, why is this ban being enforced only now but not in the past?

Could some learned Islamic scholars verify these facts ? I found the words spoken by Syed Hamid Albar even more absurd. He was quoted as saying ‘Religious issues are a sensitive matter. That is why I refrain from debating the issue but if a religion decides to show its strength and numerous other actions, I think it is verging on dangerous territory.’

He was also quoted as saying ‘The decision to disallow the weekly from using the word 'Allah' was a government decision and not that of the ministry’. What and who is he implying?

The Herald on its insistence of using the word or the government for banning other faiths from using the word? It seems to me like he is implying that he is showing his strength, meaning the government. Seems to me like he is talking about us Muslims, who being the majority in the government, are showing our strength in pushing others by preventing them from using this word.

Please, Mr Syed Hamid Albar, you speak for yourself or the government which you are a part of, but not on behalf of all Muslims. It is an insult to a majority of the Muslims here when it is implied that we can be influenced just because other faiths use this word. Are you implying that by allowing other people to use this the word, it can ‘confuse’ us as Muslims or cause us to be apostates to Islam? This is the biggest joke I've ever heard!

No wonder there is so much misunderstanding that the world has over us Muslims. These so-called ‘champions of Islam’ in the government speak as if to protect us Muslims from being ‘confused’ or from being potential apostates and this is creating to all these misunderstandings. The same guy who uses ISA ‘to protect’ people.

That's the problem with the government - getting incompetent people to do the job. This is the biggest embarrassment to us Muslims in Malaysia, especially to the silent majority. If there are sites or people that insult the Prophet Muhammad (pbuh), then, by all means prosecute the person or persons behind them as it is not right for a person to insult other faiths. Please put up laws to prevent certain people with unsound minds from doing so and charge them in court. The same goes to anybody who insults other faiths, not only us Muslims. I think this is acceptable to all.

As for the Herald, I would like to ask for some understanding on its part to not be confrontational over the use of the word ‘Allah’ for the time being until the problem is resolved by the courts which is just next month.

The editor, Father Lawrence was quoted as saying: ‘We find this restriction on the use of 'Allah' unacceptable when we have been using it as a translation for 'God' for centuries in Malaysia’. Let the courts decide then on whether this claim is true or not as I believe that historical facts can be proven through written records.

A Muslim with a sound mind will accept facts as facts and not be threatened if history shows it to be that way. As a Muslim, I do not think that the word ‘Allah’ whether it is allowed by the courts to be used or not by other faiths will impact my faith in my Allah.

Here comes the Ox!!!!!!

2009-01-22T22:51:00.011+08:00

It's 'that' time of the year again!!!!!

It has been a tiring 4 days for me but hey, I do enjoy it coz you can only see "this" kind of people around this year. It is big thing for my office around this year as we are in the Services' Industry/Customers' Orientated Industry and that means treating them like Kings and Queens even if they projected themselves like paupers!!!! Please don't get me wrong, I got nothing against Chinese but really, what is your obsession with Ang-Pau packets ?(even the non-Chinese are guilty of doing it). I like to list some of the dos and don'ts when asking for the red packets.

Do take whatever is given, maybe 1 packet(10pieces) is ridiculous, 2 are just nice, 3 are ok but 4 - you are too much, NOT AS IF YOU HAVE LOADS OF MONIES TO GIVE AWAY!!!!!!!

Don't bang the counter or stomp your feet when there are no more to give away - you will look like overgrown kid and it's not pretty (especially when you are over 50).

Do go around town - other organization produce better and sometimes for marketing purposes, companies giving it out more freely.

Don't be dependent on others - you can get it out of your own pocket. There are so much nicer.

and lastly,

Do use Internet banking to give monies then we do not have to produce a lot of the packets; cut cost, cut paper; save the trees.

Anybody want to add??

Anyway as my Chinese friends ushering the Ox's year I would be taking an easier and slower pace - having 4 days off.

Happy New Year my friends!!!!!!

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY, JUSTDOLI!!!

2009-01-11T00:33:00.008+08:00

I was supposed to post that on Thursday but the other half had to go to KL for a meeting that day so the kids and I have to sleep over at mom's for 2 nights. Why? - you may ask. Because I can't handle the kids in the morning. Aren't you surprise. Well helllllooooooo. I wake up every morning to prepare the snack boxes for the kids. I can't be running around overseeing them, that's the dad's work.

Surprisingly, when at mom's they were angels - mom said they did it ALL by themselves. So what does that tells you - Yeahhh the dad has been pampering them. Well, as long as they don't stress me early morning, I am fine with that.

So, I have been blogging for a year now. I couldn't believe it. I, with no knowledge on computers and is IT illiterate is able to have a blog. Friends thought I am 'clever' - I have my own blog. Actually it us really easy once you get a hang of it. It is just like an intranet - you log on when you want to update or search for items. So frens, start your own blog, it is the easiest way for me to know what is going on in your lives....

For me, it has been one year of experiments, experiences and journey. I am glad I took this road because with it comes open doors, doors of opportunities, of trials, failures and such. I took another step of improvement - step of faith. You may not understand it but when I triumph I will let you know. Until then, Good Nite - I am going to bed.

Should have got this toy a long time ago......

2009-01-03T16:52:00.003+08:00

Ya, I installed streamyx yesterday and I am so happy coz it is very fast and I am enjoying myself..

I started work yesterday and for me going to work on a Friday is always the best deal coz you are preparing for the next week and your body is looking forward to the next two days of relaxing again. Come Monday things will be back to normal. Jaja will start class; 2H and Beth will be reporting on Wednesday@Kindy 2. No more sleeping late for us.

3 days into the new year and I still feel sulky........

Anybody got any antidote?

Men are from Mars....

2008-12-31T23:49:00.003+08:00

...and women are from Venus. Prior to this posting, I wrote something totally different from what I presented now. I was sad and still sad. I was emotional; on new year's eve. I was presented with two bad news. - Don't know whether I should share these with you guys. Both are about relationships; both, I hope can be saved because I love these 2 couples.

I wouldn't comment because I believe that if they really want to work things out between them, they need to communicate. A 3 years courting and a 10 years marriage are a very precious and significant event that I shared with these couples that maybe it is ME that is having difficulties in letting go........

Life experiences changes us, we become more mature, more competitive, might not be highly motivated by people around us but hey.... God made us different from each other so that we may learn the values of the other person; not so much so that they can be our business partner but our life partner; not so much because they are the one paying the mortgages but they share a roof over their heads where they learn to accept each other being.

Don't walk a head of each other, don't walk behind each other but walk together;with her/him.......

To you - you know who you are.....
Everybody has their own issue but don't make that issue a burden. No one expect you to handle life issues alone, that is why you have US (even though sometimes we are slow - but we always pulled through).

Be still.....

Woow..... Did I missed you?

2008-12-28T23:57:00.006+08:00

I have been busy lately but i think it is not too late to say:

Merry Christmas

&

a Happy New Year 2009

I will be a way for a few days. Enjoy the holidays and hope to see you next year...

Rombongan Mak Ijah pergi meminang...

2008-12-20T23:35:00.016+08:00

It was a memorable day for my brother David last night 19th December 2008, for last night he was engaged to Snah. Our party arrived at the uncle's place@Stutong around 7pm. David presented Snah with 5 trays of gifts or hantaran; a parang, head gears for both couple, hunting gears for David, a pair of rings, a bottle of wine(unlikely the Kayan's culture) and a pair of sarongs for S'nah and the mother. All these cost them around RM2000.00. (I am not complaining)

Did I missed anything?

Here, the party waiting for the 'occasion' to start. The 'hantaran' were laid nicely on the table.

The night started with Pastor Peter DeRun saying the opening prayers and Rev. Trevor Tinda solemnising the engagement.

Exchanging of rings between the couple.

Uniting the union with communion.

The couple - engaged.

Then we finished off with dinner and some entertainment from S'nah's family - dances and Sape playing. Check this photo out. It's me and hubby trying the head gear.

So, wait for the next chapter from me as the wedding planner.....

The tissue issue.

2008-12-15T00:07:00.006+08:00

I love Saturday, I have to admit even though sometimes it is no fun without the other half. It is the day when my kids and I will have a lovely day outing with my two brothers and my parents (not in that order). We will have brunch and then car rides. We had ever reached Serian and Serikin...

Yesterday, we were at one eatery, RH Plaza for brunch. I have always love to come here becoz of it's locality and the choices of food especially the Penang Fried Kuay Tiaw and the HotPots - Ikan Masak Asam, Bak Kut Teh, Ka Cang Ma and Pork Leg.

But yesterday was an 'experience' for us. I had laksa and as usual I asked for tissue paper(I get messy with the lime and sambal, always...). The lady said "oh, tidak ada tisu, kalau mauk tisu pergi kaunter; beli 20 sen." I was pissed....

What kind of eatery will serve food without providing a basic needs like tissue paper. It is just like when you are done at the toilet and finding no tissue paper there!!!! Hey come on, is it just your measure to cut cost and make more monies. You are not an inexperience business people. For what I know your family own the 'gallery' next door and you earn a lot making tiles....... Tak kan tisu paper tak dapat provide kot.......

Hey... what goes around, comes around, maybe not your life time.........

Sunshine Day....

2008-12-10T00:01:00.014+08:00

Last Wednesday, for the first time in my life (sakainya...) I went to The Coffee Bean with Fiona. Thanks, Fiona for making the time... We were supposed to brisk-walked.... What the heck..... We'll start next year.

I had Mocha and she went for Caramel and we shared a piece of Oreo Cheese - sinful.......

.....and the night before ( Monday night) on the way back from mom's, just becoz the kids slept over at mom's and just becoz....

we went to Starbuck@airport- dating....

I don't know what we had but it was fantastic and we shared a piece of Tiramisu cake..

Well after that, I couldn't sleep....... darn!!!!.

Anyway, let's change the subject.

We went to tHe Spring on Sunday, saja....just to bring the kids out. (It was nice to meet you Amelia and thanks for your support.....). Actually I went there to buy myself a pair of shoe coz it's my yearly entitlement.

Check out the Christmas tree...

Then around 9.15pm, we decided to go home but not before making a stop at the Big Apple......

We decided to wait outside for our ride home coz, I have to admit - my husband love for low and sporty car sometimes do us no good but it is still our car...

I was pissed becoz we had to wait for one hour for him to get out of the parking lot itself!!
It seemed that for no reason people just suddenly think like me!

tHe Spring Management, WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOUR PARKING SYSTEM!!!!!!

The only compensation I had were the donuts....... It was sinful....(in anger - forgot to take photo of those 'nuts')

HfF

2008-12-09T22:48:00.010+08:00

It is actually I club I belongs to. What does it stand for? Well for a start, we are a group of people who pull-in our "resources" every month and when we are "rich" enough, we splurge - on food. Hence we call ourselves HfF - " Humanity for Food" (LOL.....). It is just an evening of good food, good companion, good laugh, gossips and sharing. For Catherine's sake, an ex-member who is residing in Oregon, USA - no where in the states you'll get this kind of food...

Enjoy the shots......

As usual, Fiona with loads & loads of stories & gossips.

The mix vege I created with Fiona. (We just threw everything we like)

I recommend this crab with salted egg - my first but not my last

This was how my plate look when I was done... kenyangnya.....

Lin Loong Seafood 20th November 2008

Welcome to the club, Seno & Phil

2008-11-29T23:24:00.007+08:00

My sister in-law walked down the isle this morning. She married Phil from Giam - not India; Kampung Giam, Jalan Puncak Borneo, Kuching. Both are teachers in Miri and with this occasion my in-laws has only the youngest boy to think of now.

The Bride & Groom; before leaving for St. James' Quop.

We pronounce you; husband & wife.

I just love this 'frame'

Evening event - interesting....

So, welcome to the world of married people and I just like to share an article from Saran's blog which I find very inspiring.

Getting married doesn't instantly make you selfless... it makes you realize how very selfish you can be at times. Getting married doesn't make you feel loved... it makes you realize love is more of a decision you make than a feeling you feel. Getting married doesn't take away loneliness... it makes you realize true companionship comes not when you demand it but rather when you give it to another person. So, what does marriage give? A beautiful chance to make the choice to ...
Laugh whether or not the jokes are funny. Love by folding his collar over his tie every morning. Pretend like you don't need flowers, but delight when he buys them anyway. Cheer him on through both failures and successes. Tell him he's a great man everyday. Thank God for the privilege of being his wife.

My Miracle Baby.....

2008-11-25T23:24:00.017+08:00

My boy is 7 today. I call him my Miracle baby; the baby that I longed for; I prayed for; hope for. I was married for three years and nothing happened - I meant having baby. By the way, we will be into our 10th years of marriage this coming boxing day.

Then we discovered I had a dermoid cyst somewhere outside my right ovary - if I remember correctly. It was a testing time for me but luckily - no, it was by God's grace that I pulled through. During those trial times sometimes you just cannot even imagine on what terms should you base your faith or belief on but that was all I had at that time. My faith and belief in Him and I guess it was sufficient.

I went under the knife I think early April of 2001. They cut me under my bikini lines (LOL - as if I have those.....). The cyst was big 10x9cm at least(ya... the picture are mine). If you look closely you can see traces of fat tissues and even hairs and God knows what else.... WEIRD!!!!!!!!

I was on medical leave for three weeks and during my last week I experienced nausea, easily tired and I was late too. I thought the surgeon might have left something behind!!
Anyway, I was due for my last check up before returning to work and I told my gynae that I just feel soooo tired everyday; I would be napping even in the car during my rides to and from home; mom was taking care of me at that time - macam orang berpantang...

He scanned me and said "Well no wonder your ovary was a bit 'kembang' - you are pregnant".

I'm pregnant?. EMmmmmmmm........

I'm pregnant......

I'm pregnant!!!!!!.

What about the excessive morphine/pain killer that I took; not forgetting the medications/drugs - my foetus will be a drug addict!!!!. Will 'it' develop well?. Ya... that was the concern...... for everybody; later when they found out.

Of coz the husband got to know first; then mom & dad. The rest was history but some of the things that happened during my pregnancy were; 9/11 - I was scared becoz I was about to bring this child into the world that are not safe and also, that month I gila-gila and coloured (or they called it stripping) my hair blonde.... Ha! the nerve of me.

The first photo of the baby(foetus) on 25April2001 - although I couldn't understand the scanning....

Here, the baby were more visualized. I still could not comprehend it. This were dated 22May01.

Reality was setting in. This was taken on 25August01. See the shape of the head and the outline of the baby's body.....and we got to know we were having a boy.....

I was expected to deliver on 10Dec01 but by middle November, it was as if the water that was supposed to protect and nourish the baby were diminishing and I kind of remembered when we stayed in Damai early November, I felt as if my water broke - but because I was in the pool, I couldn't be sure.....

So my Oby/Gynae asked me to deliver the baby as soon as possible because the chances of him surviving were better outside than inside. I was scared......Will my baby be ok? Will I be ok? We decided to 'checked-in' on Sunday@8.00am@Sarawak GH.

Weirdly, I was also having "Braxton Hicks"(I hope the term is correct) the night before and in the morning I was a bit dilated. I couldn't remember whether I was induced but it was fast. I only need to push four times than he waaaaaaaaaa.....waaaaaaaas out. The pain was bearable too. I have to admit, I had an easy birth. Weighing at 1.95kg, he was considered premature. He was small and thin. They ran test on him at 4 am- it was painful to see, it really broke me at that time. I think we were there for 3 days and finally he was declared fit to go home........

Our first photo together - the first few days@home.

The first time I introduced him to the sun - he was 1 month old and putting on more weight

Look how proud and handsome he look here and he was just 4/5 months.

Trying to walk and getting more naughtier - 9 months

He is 2 here.. the baby I love so much...and he grow up so fast. I wish they stay like this forever but I guess the Lord has better plans for them. My prayer is that He will continue to mould him, direct him, teach him to be the person He wants him to be..

My Miracle baby....
EZRA NATHANIEL
Happy Birthday.
Know that you are loved....

Eagle's wings

2008-11-24T23:07:00.007+08:00

I am on leave today until Friday. I do plan to have quality time with the kids. Furthermore tomorrow is the boy's 7th birthday. The plan was to go to Damai but had to postponed coz Maysun couldn't get the day off. Luckily I haven't told the kids of the plan or else; nag...nag...nag....

So what did we do today? NOTHING!!! By afternoon I asked everybody including the father who happened to be on sick leave - of tooth ache; to take a nap.

The kids grow up so fast.... We were looking at all photos and I was saying how adorable they were. Now, if I say one thing they will answer me two... And Ezra seems to be going through puberty even though he is just seven. He is so rebellious sometimes; I wish I can smack him but I just pray that the Lord gives me enough strength and wisdom to guide him all through these phases of life. Sometimes I do fear for him and sometimes for myself. Have I done enough for my own child? Am I doing it the right way? Are there any right way? What if ..........

Please Lord, help my kids to grow up under your wings. Help them learn to wait for you, then they have strenght to mount up with wings like the eagles. They shall walk and not be weary, they shall run and not fall. Help them to grow up to be like the eagles; full of courage, strong having faith in Him and everything a mother wishes for the children.....

So you guys out there, any useful advise?

We went Italian last night....

2008-11-16T14:49:00.014+08:00

Yeah.... Last week we went for pizzas@pizza hut and ND blurted out how the spaghetti in white sauce look so tempting. So, Everlind the girlfren cited that she can do better and of coz we are 'family of food loving people' welcomed her suggestion to prepare it the coming week. For me.... it was as if someone put food directly in my mouth - if you know what I mean(and loving every single moment of it). I have to admit she cooks very well and we enjoy the sumptuous dinner. Thanks ya Lind.

Lind is serving.....

Abet taking his turn..

Look how Beth & Ezra are enjoying themselves

Wonder what's on her mind...

Ha!! another satisfying moment for him...

EMmmm what did I just said?....

2008-11-14T23:40:00.002+08:00

Ha!!!! I like to welcome Frankie to my circle of bloggers. If I can, you surely do better.....

Want to hear some sick jokes?... This was by Andrew relayed by Emily.....

One day, the young cow came running home from the chicken village, crying with tears running down his cheeks. The older cow asked what's the matter and the young cow said the entire village of chicken tried to harm him and even gave him a good chased out of that place.

"You must have done something to provoke them. What did you say?" asked the old cow.

" All I said were goodbyes and don't know why they were so upset."

"Maybe it's not what you said but how you said it...." the older cow added.

"Well.... all I said was ""xiao chi bye!, lao chi bye!, the whole village of chi bye! chi bye! All chi bye!...""

** xiao chi - small chicken
**lao chi - big chicken
**chi - chicken.

Mean while I read this jokes from a fellow blogger known as Mystery Ladybird (I love her writings).

One day, a man who didn't feel quite well went to a private clinic for medical consultation. The clinic was full with out-patients and that made the nurse who was on duty at the registration counter had to give her service with quite a high tone of voice as it was very noisy at the time.

Nurse : Nama apa? ( Name please)

Man : Chern Ta Lek.

Nurse : Nama orang putih ada? (D you have any English name?)

The man looked to his right, then to his left then whisper softly his name..

Man : Teh Tarik..

Nurse : Apa??!!!!! (What??!!!)

The man looked irritated and said his name out loud

Man : TEH TARIK!!!

Everybody were quite and everything went in silence mode

p/s you will smile if you are a chinese reader but if you are not, you wouldn't find these jokes as funny at all.

Finally, it is set....

2008-11-10T22:35:00.001+08:00

The wedding will be on 30th May 2008... Not by their choice but I guess we do have to consider the relatives from afar and I agree (Senah is hoping relatives as far from Miri and mom from Sibu and Kapit to attend). Tentatively we will do the reception at the Four Points by Sheraton (although in the midst of construction will be ready by then). We do have the menus. We are hoping for a fun, memorable wedding where three cultures; Bidayuh, Iban and Kayan will be united and I do hope David will consider it (if you are reading this - we want something unique...)

So this is my first report as tHe Wedding Planner.

Finally..... with courage I went....

2008-11-08T23:49:00.004+08:00

Yeeaa... it was an issue that matters, really....

You know i was not feeling well for a couple of months now.......

Bruce said it's the tooth and nothing but the tooth...

So finally i made the appointment with Roki the Dentist a week prior.......

Hubby refused to come, he had to work anyway; so dragged Jaja, Beth and my dad together with ND to go with me......

Then when it was my turn...

I closed my eyes; refusing to look or try to imagine the syringes......

The assistant held my hands........

I squeezed it tightly.....

"It's going to hurt a bit" she said...

1..... 2..... 3.....

Nothing happened..

1.... 2.... 3.....

Hallelujah!!!!! The source of my sickness has left my body..... I am free.... I am free.... I am free..

I am alive.........

That was the only tooth I ever extracted since my school time.... COOoooL.......

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRLZZZ!!

2008-11-05T23:06:00.007+08:00

My girl, Beth, turned 5 on 30th October2008. I wanted to give her that childhood memories of celebrating birthday. So got the whole family in the agenda and I was so happy with the result. I like to thank my brothers ND and David together with their girlfrens, Everlind and Senah, my sister Ivy and her children; Nevin, Nigel and Nuvall and of coz my beloved Ma and Abba and not forgetting my in-laws for taking care of my kids so I can get organized and my sister in-law Anna; who took care of the cake....

We celebrated her big day on 1st November, which happened to be 'mour' Bday also....... but I guess even though I was not the centre of attraction I was just as happy just by the look on her face and saw her smile on that day.....

Happy Birthday, Bethany Megan

ps. Many Happy returns of the day to me too..

These two are my event managers - I couldn't have done it without them.

OOHH... How I love the deco!!!!!!!

The most beautiful person on that day, looking very "mysterious"

Blowing the candles (Cake by Riverside Majestic/Crown Plaza)

EZRA NATHANIEL & SAMUEL KARUNIA

I'M A WEDDING PLANNER!!!!!!

2008-10-23T23:52:00.005+08:00

Finally....Since it's in his blog I guess is also ok to put it in my blog. So, my youngest brother Abet 'melangkah bedul' over ND and going to get engaged to Senah Ukong. The wedding will be next year and I being busy body offered to be the wedding planner. It was actually a pack between I and ND(that I will be his when he tie the knot); mana tau jadi like this.

Well I will try, if Senah say yes too, bro..........

The meeting between the family will be in few weeks time and I guess I will update you guys on me as the wedding planner....

I AM BACK......

2008-10-18T14:14:00.006+08:00

My PC Modem was struck by lightning and as a result I was unable to go online for a couple of weeks. Although the other half and I were on leave for few days last week, I found that with the children schooling, we still need to do the things we do every morning. So I does not really make any differences - unless it is school holidays. I was on sick leave for 1 1/2 days on Wed & Thur; came down with the flu virus. I slept the whole day on Thursday and today still recovering.

I wish to congrats Simon on his wedding day last week; 11Oct2008. It was a beautiful weddings and why I said weddings becoz it was a mass wedding . 7 couples got married at the same time that day. St. Anne was beautiful and it was like a garden's wedding. I love garden's wedding.... and talking about wedding, the family might have one next year...... Am so happy.....

Savor the pictures I took....

The church altar from where I was sitting with Jaja looking back at me.

Some of the couples

Simon and partner are second from right

P/s. You may check Abet's blog for some more photos.

GO, GIRL POWER!!!!!

2008-09-24T20:41:00.008+08:00

I've been following certain TV drama-series and seems to be stuck and looking forward to watch it every week and no, its not the CSIs series; although Grisson still amuses me, I just don't understand why Fiona love Horatio.....anyway.....

It started with "Desperate Housewives" - then I got bored... The women seems to be having to much sex; if you know what I mean. I stopped watching becoz the series lack vision and like what I said - OVERSEXED!!!!!

Now, I am watching "Cashmere Mafia". Created by Kevin Wade, it tells of a group of successful female executives who have been friends since college turn to each other for guidance as they juggle their careers with family in New York City. This drama is starred by Lucy Liu as Mia Mason, Frances O'Connor as Zoe Burden, Miranda Otto as Juliet Drapper and Bonnie Somerville as Caitlin Dowd.

Another series is the "Lipstick Jungle" - A look at the lives of Nico(Kim Raver), Wendy(Brooke Shield), and Victory(Lindsay Price) -- three of "New York's 50 Most Powerful Women," according to The New York Post.

(Pics by The Internet Movie Database)

These are career women, successful, rich and everything a woman wish she is to be. Loads of self-esteem and power - you wish you taste a bit of their glamorous life, wish you have their power, their monies, lifestyle and even their men....

But hey.... although you learn a bit of facts of life in these drama- you laugh a little, smile a little and even cry a little - and while they are good entertainment materials, it doesn't happen in MY WORLD.

Back to reality. My body ache..... For the last couple of weeks, I had food allergies, toothache and painful gum (that made my entire right cheek hurt) and now am having sore throat + sinus. According to Bluce all it takes is a trip to Roki the Dentist...

I had the food allergies for 2 weeks and it showed-up every morning and night. I was never allergic to food; FOOD!!!!! that's my life you are talking about. I love FOOD!!!
So they asked me to list down the food I ate. Thank God am not allergic to PORK!!! Turn out I am not allergic to any food (I think). Emily said maybe I've been showering hot water and I think Abet also said the same thing...

Talk about FOOD. Last Friday the HfF team went to Sweet Happiness for our dinner.
Pictures paint a thousand words...

Emily and Chang telling the Chef what we want

That's the crab; delicious....

This is new - Chicken + herbs soup; cooked in coconut, not my cup of tea but some of the gang liked it..

Well enough said. Goodnite and have a productive day a head..

My New Toy... Happy Birthday Cat

2008-09-09T22:14:00.013+08:00

My phone died on me a couple of days ago. Somehow I feel like a left hand had been chopped-off. Hubby was reluctant to give me his "left hand" so promised to buy me one. Yeah... we went phone hunting yesterday but what he forgot to tell me was his budget. Anyway, he was kind enough to fulfill my dream..

I have always like this one... so thanks Hon;(I luv you). So I got myself a Nokia 6500 Slide.

I love this phone for a simple fact that I can download photos straight to my pc to my blog so I don't have to wait for anybody to download it from their camera for me and another bonus is I can YAHOO!!! Yahoooooo.....

I like to wish Catherine a "Happy Birthday - many happy returns of the day. May you bless others like you've been blessed and wherever you are; we are thinking of you."

(Pic by Cat- when she makan angin kat States)

CONGRATS SIS!!!!!

2008-08-15T20:12:00.005+08:00

After a very long and hard journey, finally my sister Ivy Toda graduated with a Bachelor Degree from Unimas. So that leave me and my eldest brother Terry without a "scroll".

The whole family attended the function except for hubby and big brother. Although tiring it was blissful, some cried and some laughed at the crying ones.......

So lets just enjoy some of the moments...

Once again... Congratulations Sis, you deserve it..

08.08.08

2008-08-08T21:42:00.003+08:00

It's a lucky number; according to Chinese belief and that was why the opening of 2008 Olympic China started at 08:08:08 on 08.08.08. Ironically I was also told that today is the first day of the 7th month of the Chinese Calendar and it is not a good month - it is when the door of hell is open wide and souls, demons or ghosts roam the earth (Chinese, correct me if I am wrong).

My day was tarnished by a forged RM50.00 note found in my cash box. The note was from yesterday's collection and I missed it. So, there was no where we can tracked it down. Surprisingly we discovered 2 more forged RM50.00 notes making it 3 today. Why did I miss it??? I don't know.... But the forgery was perfect; down to the ultraviolet stripes. Even the Chief Cashier missed it........... There goes my luck eh...

BON VOYAGE!! UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN......

2008-08-02T21:28:00.006+08:00

Hena was back for a one week visit and as I am writ ting this, she would have been in the arms of beloved Amos.......I grew up with Hena; not only is she's a friend, she is a sister. We knew each other when we were in the Youth at the tender age of 15. We went through the journey of being a teenager to being a wife together. It has always been the two of us until now - Audrey and Hena works together - although separated by the South China Sea they are constantly e-mailing each other, not that I mind in-fact I am glad at least now when we go out it will be the three of us.

Who's Audrey????Being with That girl was an adrenalin rush....

With her..... I had the most exciting car rides.

- being chased by boys, men....

- being chased by boyfriends

- being chased by ex-boyfriends..

- chasing boys, men, boyfriends and ex-boyfriends....

But.... we mellowed..... and married and had kids (she has 3 boys!!!!!!)

So when Hena asked us out, again it was something that I look forward to.

I had a heavy schedule that day. Had dinner with my colleges@ Hai Pa Wang and half way had to leave for a movie - The Mummy III; We double-dated with Eng Siong and Eileen.By 11pm Audrey and Hena was at my place and we went to Atmosphere for a "decent" drink..

Two of my favourite people; Hena & Audrey

and these were what we had....yummy, yummy...

Then,we went to one of the night spot along Hilton. I must say... I felt a bit "old". Audrey, gone were those days when I can still do head-banging _(LOL) but I do enjoy the live band although I've seen better. Anyway,I glass of vodka-lime gave me a hangover until Monday (that show how old my body is....)

Guys, lets do it again....

Von voyage Hena until Christmas........

OLD GANG REUNION

2008-07-28T21:41:00.005+08:00

Hena is back. She's a close friend of mine, more like a sister to me - You can say, we grew up together. She's married to Amos and works with Alliance Bank in Subang.

So, as usual, called up all the gang to meet up. I was excited when Eng Siong managed to contact Stanley, Sing How and Korno for the "reunion"; unfortunately none of the boys turn-up. Audrey went to JB for her class - and feeling glad to avoid the "reunion". So I had to be contended having Hena, Hui Khoon, Linda and Eng Siong and later were joined by Eileen and Josiah.

We ate at the Elephant; as usual and had a great time catching up with each other.

MY OFFICE NEW LOOK....

2008-07-25T23:03:00.007+08:00

The Bank launched its' new platform on 23rd July;Wednesday. I loved the way the place look. It was so alive and colourful with smell of fresh flowers every way.............ah....makes ones feel as if in Eden. I have to admit, it was a fun day for everybody and work was delightful.

Flowers......

More flowers....and the place smell of garden of roses, lilies....

Our players: Chang Nyet Lee, Diana, Emily, Chang Kin Sung,
Thomas Lim, Lina Chew, Joanna Thian and Jane Trevor.

(Pictures courtesy of Emily Kueh)

It was a fun Friday too. With 60% workforce today (most of them went off to Brunei by invitation of Brunei's Branch for a Sport Carnival in conjunction with 60 years anniversary of the Bank in that country and certain people on leave and of coz one particular person on sick leave). Despite the short-handedness it was still an enjoy-full environment to work in becoz somehow I am surrounded by people who share the same view and opinion on certain issues if not all. It makes working there bearable. I guess its universal issues; you are bound to work with idiots too - I just feel they don't know how lucky they are to work with the Bank. Some people just resented it until they fail to unveil their true potential...... Anyway, I made monies today....(Overtime)

I joined my sis/bro-in-law for dinner at Holiday Inn this evening. Thank you Mayfri and Marianna, it was so thoughtful of you (and of coz the kids joint them earlier for a dip in the pool). It was a Japanese/Korean buffet style dinner. I had a taste of Kim chi, Japanese pizza, mussel, sushi, cheese cake.... To bad the camera is spoilt.

Nasi ayam, next Laksa.

2008-07-14T00:25:00.005+08:00

I received an sms from ND@4.30pm, Sunday; inviting us to mom's coz somebody is cooking chicken rice. Emmmm.... sound good - meaning; free meal for me, good company, delicious food and a time with the whole family(we do this almost every week and next week is Laksa week).

Now, a normal person would not think of anything other than well.... it's just a normal family weekend's dinner. Eek... WRONG!!!!!!

Found out until after dinner that actually mom does not like the idea of me eating out so often. When I deny saying I only do it on weekends she replied - "what about on your working days?" Emmm...she has a point there (at this point of time, all eyes were on me).

Since Beth starting Kindy, I & hubby have been having breakfast together. Breakfast was something we didn't have time to do before - morning was a rush for us...

So, it will be breakfast with hubby and sometimes Fiona, Mary or Stephen, Lunch with Fiona and dinner at mom's.

I gained 5-7kg since - mom's worry, I also worry ..........

Guess I wouldn't be a Kumang Gawai again....

I am pissed!!!!!!!

2008-06-23T00:13:00.004+08:00

The prices of fuel has gone up, AGAIN. Although I don't feel the pinch yet but it's gradually coming and I am not sure whether we(the family unit) can deal with it. If the government are so keen in rising the fuel prices and taking out all the subsidies, I think they are doing it the wrong way - you are burdening the rakyat and I think you should build a better transportation systems FIRST. It's a fact that the federal are giving the state RM1B and sad to say some of the funds will go to Apai Sali's and the sons' pocket. I am pissed!!!!!!!!!!!!

Even if all the ministers were to deduct 10% of their salaries, I bet you they still earned by their other incomes(and of coz being corrupted people!!!!) WE are the rakyat are always on the losing side. They forgot the reason why the are holding that positions. WE ELECTED THEM TO SUPPORT US, BE OUR VOICES AND TO PROTECT US. OK let me cool down first.....

Forget that I ever mentioned Apai...

We can't even put our status as the same of that of KL. They have LRT,ERL, apa lagi ya... These are the system that I am talking about. You connect towns like as far as Serian and Bau make Kuching it's Centre. Hello....... don't tell me it never occurred in the minds of all that have been elected.( Ya..... they are all so busy collecting harta for themselves they forgot us.....)

Until it materialises don't even think about hiking the price. Put your foot where your mouth is just don't let me do it....

SELAMAT ARI GAWAI DAYAK

2008-06-01T02:04:00.001+08:00

OOO............ AHHH........

SELAMAT ARI GAWAI NGAGAI KITAI BANGSA DAYAK

GAYU GURU GERAI NYAMAI

LANTANG SENANG NGINTU MENUA.

Sexy, sexy, sexy

2008-05-25T00:27:00.005+08:00

It's not about anybody but about our school uniform, the baju kurung. Now what is the excitement about??? This is kerja orang yang tak ada kerja.

On Wednesday, National Islamic Students Association of Malaysia vice-president Munirah Bahari reportedly said the school uniform worn by schoolgirls was sexy.

Munirah said: "The white blouse is too transparent and it becomes a source of attraction", and that it could encourage "rape, sexual harassment and even premarital sex".(NST 25May08)

Duh....

Don't you think you should focus more on the offenders and not the victims?.

On a lighter side.....

David Cook IS the American Idol 2008 ( as predicted by yours truly) and as we hoped, Stacy won the Akademi Fantasia 6.

Well my brother Abet would breath easily now becoz when Stanly was voted out of the Akademi, it was like a conspiracy theory exist and he was fumed up when they didn't kicked Nadia out when she was voted out earlier. Luckily Nadia was in 5th place. He vow never to SMS to this progamme. A word of advise... Let's just stick to American Idol.

The other day, I happened to cross/find some of the blogger that I find amusing. They touches on issues from politics to entertainment, from the things you find irritating to something we take for granted. So frens for the benefit of others I am sharing them under "my amusement", so check them out ya.... (I have to thank Abet for this).

Can't believe it!!!

2008-05-16T23:29:00.005+08:00

Today marked the end of my core leave. So, what did I do? Pretty much nothing. Planned to go to Damai last Saturday but the kids came down with fever so spent Monday with Ezra(who was on sick leave). He was ok on Tuesday just in time for his exam on Wednesday. Then I spent Tuesday and Wednesday looking at the two square boxes. Managed to watch "The Devil wears Prada" n "The Spartan". 9am/1pm - Oprah time (did some soul searching). Then finally hubby managed to get leave on Thursday, so while waiting for the kids, we went to tHE Spring - bought a Ms Read's blouse and that's it...... My life is so boring..... I keep on bugging him for a second wheel. Tunggu lah when I get it......and on top of that, the weather is so HOT.

Today, I managed to go for that long due facial appointment, I snoozed then went for my HfF dinner@Country Court. It was nice to meet up with the gang since I didn't see them for a week and did some catching up..Surprisingly, nobody took photos this time so I got nothing to share with you guys.....

So here I am....

I am bored.....

I think I'll call it a day. Goodnite. Hopefully tomorrow I have some topics to write about eh...

Happy Birthday, Honey...

2008-05-16T00:21:00.007+08:00

Although it was 3 days ago; it is still not to late to say it...( I managed to log in now so... ) Anyway I just like to say..

Happy Birthday!! (belated - but was not forgotten). May we have many years together, making our own mark in everybody's lives, making fond memories, laughing together, crying together and growing old together....

Know that you are loved... Maysun Redjo

Fireman, Sam

2008-04-26T14:23:00.002+08:00

I had an excited experience just the other morn (and no... it was not sex). Just around 2.30am@Friday I was awaken by the sound of a car honing outside and what sound like burnt leaves. When I looked outside my bedroom, to my horror the shack my neighbour build for the children as a play-house was on fire and another neighbour was trying to get our attention by honing. Have not seen a bonfire for a long time....but I have to admit, it was such an exciting moment. They managed to put out the fire and minutes later I can here the siren.... at this moment I frantically was looking for my camera...(ooo... am so excited - the fire brigade in front of the house). I try to take pictures but you all know am not good with gadget.. The bonfire was 'the' climax for me that morn and as usual after a great sex zzzzzzzzzzzzz.

How are you feeling??

2008-04-20T22:50:00.002+08:00

I don't know...

Am upset with my PC:-

It is slow and wasting my time - nothing has been done..

I can't log-in my Yahoo account - unable to read my mails...

I can't log-in my ESOS - unable to monitor my shares.....

I can't (don't know how) to transfer my photos from camera to PC - unable to share photos..

ACTION PLANS

Get Streamyx.....

Get new Laptop/Note Book.....OR

get myself a new wheel so I can move around on weekends and get interact with the world instead of just looking at the square boxes (TV and PC), that will really do me good eh....

Next question...

DO I HAVE THE MONEY?.....

Any body want to start a "Save Doli's sanity's funds".