I AM BACK!!!!

Not that I was so busy but after checking my FB and e-mails, I just couldn't bring myself to open up and share and pour out all my emotion for public to know... Not that I've never done it before but writing a blog is hard work man... Not only do you need to think about the consequences of you exposing yourself but of others who might feel the emotions. Where do I draw the line? Do I just write anything that comes to my mind and share all aspect of my life. What if I do, then you discover what a boring life I am living, will you still be there for me?

My emotion

For sometimes now I didn't update the blog and when I wanted to jot down my thoughts, the site said "my certificate is invalid". What the **** happen? I tried to rectify and I guess by this posting I've succeed. So, what's new?

As for me, everyday is a learning experiences, discoveries and life never cease to fascinate. I like to see good in everything or at least try to but the journey also unfold the evil in people and sad to say in myself too. I am an emotional person; every one in the family knows that, even Beth find it amuse when I cry in front of that "Box". I used to be discreet but when the truth was out and self acceptance came in - I have learned to let go. Now I cry like nobody business and Little Brother will turn a 'sob' drama to a stand-up comedy (sucker!!!). The truth will set you free!! Try it people, it is so liberating - just prepare a box of tissue paper then you are all set. LOL!!!!!

A month ago, I 'stepped" on the MOTH's tail. It was his Futsal night and I was out with friends. Earlier, I told him I would be done before he know it and his game normally starts late. Yeah.. we gals talked, talked... and lost track of time. Reached home, said sorry and for sure I got the silent treatment!!!

I hate the silent treatment. I've been through it for so many times but this time it was the longest - 2 weeks (now you understand why I am not the 1st in his life. Sad....) Should feel resentful, right? But I didn't want to be dragged in an emotional turmoil where it would just leave scars in my life. I didn't want to have to handle it on my own - I was tired...

Lebih dari nafasku

Ku perlukan KasihMU

Peganglah tangan ku

Berjalanlah di samping ku, Bapa

untuk selamanya.....

I can't, I wouldn't...

So, I just lifted it all to HIM....

He said 'REST'....

I let go....

I learned a bit of myself in that 2 weeks in regards to marriage. I didn’t like the feeling of not having the “support” from the MOTH. I can still do it but the whole idea of marriage or should I say being marriage is having a partner (breathing) who shares and accept each other and especially when you being married for 10 years being grumpy is not a turn-on!!!!. I do or say something hurtful, show me how you feel, go a head, argue, trash it out with me – we might not agree but go to bed in peace. I do not need a baby that suck the life out of me. It’s tiring.

The closest in the family were aware of the situation – especially mom, who understood better this time. Previously, it was always my fault and I get sermons. Thanks Mom and Lil Bro for listening and supporting. Lil Bro might not agree 100% but because I am his sister, he’s always on my side. I love you guys. Isk….isk… isk….

During that period of “silence”, we had a steamboat dinner, a short travel to Bintulu by the MOTH and a funeral. Not bad for a family unit that were in crisis!!!

Why am I sharing this? Well….

Last night, I said something that made the MOTH’s face turned and until this morning…..

My weekends is packed! I do not have time to just laze around now. Kids are demanding too. So, I guess I have to squeeze in whatever is left of my time.

So what's new?

Kuching Fest started today. It's near my office but I do not see myself going there because it is just too expensive but maybe I will bring the kids once..... Wouldn't hurt.

And the Kuching Regatta is on starting yesterday. I would love to see but hating the crowds and the jams.

Having something on with Fiona tomorrow so I thing I will call it A Day.

Sorry.....

for the absence. Only when I read the news this morning that I had the itch to log-in again. Yeah.. Kenny Sia kind of reminded me that blogging use to be my passion. Don't know where I went wrong?. Time? I've been playing my kid's PC games (I am a wedding planner in Wedding Dash...). Story? I've been out and dining almost every week mostly with Fiona (yeah... I took some tasty photos).

I just ran out of ideas and I do feel I lack the presentation....

Anyway, I attended my first PTA today. I wanted to bring up some issues that I feel necessary. My son has been saying that his math teacher is not really approachable. The kids are so scared of her. Even to ask question.... I just feel that she should be more willing. I mean she threw books too. If you are a teacher and it is your duty to give your pupil the best you can give, to show them what they don't know. I think it is ones proudest moment when we teach a person and that person actually understand it. It's hard work, I realised; that's why I am not one.

When I reached the meeting I found that that is not the platform I can use to voice my concern about a teacher. So sorry Presscar, look like we need to find another way of solving this issue.

Anyway, one thing that I learned was, every parents should come to their children's PTA and get an insight of what's going on in their school. One may not be in the AJK (committee) but being an outsider is more fruitfull, at least you are informed and involved.

So the next meeting I am gearing up all my friends to be involved.

Happy Chinese New Year!!!

Let's welcome the tiger!!!!. Needless to say; I was also busy this new year - busy eating!!!!!! Today is the second day of the tiger year. I spent half of the day feeding the rascals (I am trying to be a good mother..) Of coz, woke up around 9am upon hearing the MOTH leaving the house to help the mother in Kampung. He decided to leave the rascals with me coz it was raining. Poor kids, they didn't have breakfast before the father left. So searched the kitchen for things that I can possibly turn into something edible AND nutritious. Ended up making scones!!!!! Kids didn't fancy it. By the time they had breakfast it was lunch time. Emmmmmm so tired!!!!!!!! and I haven't taken my bath yet!!!!

Searched the kitchen again. I decided to cook mee hoon goreng. I had dried shrimp blended with red onion and chili, I had dory fish and broccoli and egg. Everything thrown in and walla!!! Kids loved it.

The kids were promised a swim by the uncle at Four Points. So around 5.30pm we went over. It was quiet......

I went over to tHe Spring to meet up with old friends. Unfortunately the place was so pricey we decided to go to Top Spot for seafood. Being the second day of CNY the only stall that was open were the Muslims. I am not being racist here but it was a very poor service, they cut throat, greedy and you just name it; you got it. I guess it happens every way during this time of the year.

I am sorry for my overseas friends; Hsioa Fern, Edward and baby Gavin who came all the way from Seattle, Jo from London, Angeline and hubby and Florence from KL and Aimee from Bintulu. I should have been a more proactive host.

Next trip, I will open my home to you and serve you all the food you love so much and didn't get when you are all away.

Have a safe journey home and hope to see you soon.

Bon voyage!!!!

Merry Christmas!!!!!

Enjoy your holidays and remember the reason for the season..

and in case I don't log in by new year, I guess HAPPY NEW 2010 TO YOU TOO.

Thank you for supporting me this 2 years and maybe later I'll share with you my resolution for the new year.

HO! HO! HO!

xxooxx
Just Doli and will forever be Doli

EXcuses, excuses, excuses......

Hello..... My excuse for not updating is I AM BUSY and along the way, I forgotten my log-in password!!!!! I dread the day when I would not be able to tell my stories through this blog. JustDoli
is the rebirth of the sassy, savvy pc me. I hate to restart another blog if it were to happen. God forbid!!!

Anyway, my kids will be having their school break and I am happy coz my weekends are more meaningful - it's family time.

I would love to add but I am tired. Maybe I'll find time soon.

So until then; have a productive what's left of your week...

I am back!!!!

I just got the PC fixed and I like to let you guys know that I am back and I will be posting some items soon. My schedule are pack this week. Over the weekend I will be busy at Anddy's clinic and there's the Parish's Sale that I need to go to. So guys..... Catch up with ya later.

Cao.

Hoorahhh!!! The day finally here!!!

Hey!!! I just want to let you know and I'm packing to go for my long deserve vacation........ Will of coz let you know all about the trip. SOOOO..

Jakarta & Bali!!!! Here I come.....

Emmm what else?

Sorry guys, busy chatting with frinds@Facebook. I leave you with this:.

Only great minds can read this.
This is weird, but interesting!

fi yuo cna raed tihs, yuo hvae a sgtrane mnid too
Cna yuo raed tihs? Olny 55 plepoe out of 100 can.
i cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it dseno't mtaetr in waht oerdr the ltteres in a wrod are, the olny iproamtnt tihng is taht the frsit and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it whotuit a pboerlm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Azanmig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt! if you can raed tihs forwrad it

FORWARD ONLY IF YOU CAN READ IT.

I'll be back..

Cao

Facebook.

I have not been updating this blog for a very simple reason - I am hook to Facebook!!!!!
What is this program; that makes you feel like adding more friends and you get the satisfaction on knowing you have more friends than the others..... Sucker!!!!! and the games.......

Well, I promise in a couple of days I will update you mainly on David's wedding's preparation, my HfF outing and of course the economic tumult which is scaring me.

As for now, I need my beauty sleep ( but not before checking my FB)

GO, GIRL POWER!!!!!

I've been following certain TV drama-series and seems to be stuck and looking forward to watch it every week and no, its not the CSIs series; although Grisson still amuses me, I just don't understand why Fiona love Horatio.....anyway.....

It started with "Desperate Housewives" - then I got bored... The women seems to be having to much sex; if you know what I mean. I stopped watching becoz the series lack vision and like what I said - OVERSEXED!!!!!


Now, I am watching "Cashmere Mafia". Created by Kevin Wade, it tells of a group of successful female executives who have been friends since college turn to each other for guidance as they juggle their careers with family in New York City. This drama is starred by Lucy Liu as Mia Mason, Frances O'Connor as Zoe Burden, Miranda Otto as Juliet Drapper and Bonnie Somerville as Caitlin Dowd.



Another series is the "Lipstick Jungle" - A look at the lives of Nico(Kim Raver), Wendy(Brooke Shield), and Victory(Lindsay Price) -- three of "New York's 50 Most Powerful Women," according to The New York Post.

(Pics by The Internet Movie Database)

These are career women, successful, rich and everything a woman wish she is to be. Loads of self-esteem and power - you wish you taste a bit of their glamorous life, wish you have their power, their monies, lifestyle and even their men....

But hey.... although you learn a bit of facts of life in these drama- you laugh a little, smile a little and even cry a little - and while they are good entertainment materials, it doesn't happen in MY WORLD.

Back to reality. My body ache..... For the last couple of weeks, I had food allergies, toothache and painful gum (that made my entire right cheek hurt) and now am having sore throat + sinus. According to Bluce all it takes is a trip to Roki the Dentist...

I had the food allergies for 2 weeks and it showed-up every morning and night. I was never allergic to food; FOOD!!!!! that's my life you are talking about. I love FOOD!!!
So they asked me to list down the food I ate. Thank God am not allergic to PORK!!! Turn out I am not allergic to any food (I think). Emily said maybe I've been showering hot water and I think Abet also said the same thing...

Talk about FOOD. Last Friday the HfF team went to Sweet Happiness for our dinner.
Pictures paint a thousand words...

Emily and Chang telling the Chef what we want

That's the crab; delicious....

This is new - Chicken + herbs soup; cooked in coconut, not my cup of tea but some of the gang liked it..

Well enough said. Goodnite and have a productive day a head..

08.08.08

It's a lucky number; according to Chinese belief and that was why the opening of 2008 Olympic China started at 08:08:08 on 08.08.08. Ironically I was also told that today is the first day of the 7th month of the Chinese Calendar and it is not a good month - it is when the door of hell is open wide and souls, demons or ghosts roam the earth (Chinese, correct me if I am wrong).

My day was tarnished by a forged RM50.00 note found in my cash box. The note was from yesterday's collection and I missed it. So, there was no where we can tracked it down. Surprisingly we discovered 2 more forged RM50.00 notes making it 3 today. Why did I miss it??? I don't know.... But the forgery was perfect; down to the ultraviolet stripes. Even the Chief Cashier missed it........... There goes my luck eh...

MY OFFICE NEW LOOK....

The Bank launched its' new platform on 23rd July;Wednesday. I loved the way the place look. It was so alive and colourful with smell of fresh flowers every way.............ah....makes ones feel as if in Eden. I have to admit, it was a fun day for everybody and work was delightful.

Flowers......

More flowers....and the place smell of garden of roses, lilies....

Our players: Chang Nyet Lee, Diana, Emily, Chang Kin Sung,
Thomas Lim, Lina Chew, Joanna Thian and Jane Trevor.

(Pictures courtesy of Emily Kueh)




It was a fun Friday too. With 60% workforce today (most of them went off to Brunei by invitation of Brunei's Branch for a Sport Carnival in conjunction with 60 years anniversary of the Bank in that country and certain people on leave and of coz one particular person on sick leave). Despite the short-handedness it was still an enjoy-full environment to work in becoz somehow I am surrounded by people who share the same view and opinion on certain issues if not all. It makes working there bearable. I guess its universal issues; you are bound to work with idiots too - I just feel they don't know how lucky they are to work with the Bank. Some people just resented it until they fail to unveil their true potential...... Anyway, I made monies today....(Overtime)

I joined my sis/bro-in-law for dinner at Holiday Inn this evening. Thank you Mayfri and Marianna, it was so thoughtful of you (and of coz the kids joint them earlier for a dip in the pool). It was a Japanese/Korean buffet style dinner. I had a taste of Kim chi, Japanese pizza, mussel, sushi, cheese cake.... To bad the camera is spoilt.

Sexy, sexy, sexy

It's not about anybody but about our school uniform, the baju kurung. Now what is the excitement about??? This is kerja orang yang tak ada kerja.

On Wednesday, National Islamic Students Association of Malaysia vice-president Munirah Bahari reportedly said the school uniform worn by schoolgirls was sexy.

Munirah said: "The white blouse is too transparent and it becomes a source of attraction", and that it could encourage "rape, sexual harassment and even premarital sex".(NST 25May08)


Duh....

Don't you think you should focus more on the offenders and not the victims?.

On a lighter side.....

David Cook IS the American Idol 2008 ( as predicted by yours truly) and as we hoped, Stacy won the Akademi Fantasia 6.

Well my brother Abet would breath easily now becoz when Stanly was voted out of the Akademi, it was like a conspiracy theory exist and he was fumed up when they didn't kicked Nadia out when she was voted out earlier. Luckily Nadia was in 5th place. He vow never to SMS to this progamme. A word of advise... Let's just stick to American Idol.

The other day, I happened to cross/find some of the blogger that I find amusing. They touches on issues from politics to entertainment, from the things you find irritating to something we take for granted. So frens for the benefit of others I am sharing them under "my amusement", so check them out ya.... (I have to thank Abet for this).

Can't believe it!!!

Today marked the end of my core leave. So, what did I do? Pretty much nothing. Planned to go to Damai last Saturday but the kids came down with fever so spent Monday with Ezra(who was on sick leave). He was ok on Tuesday just in time for his exam on Wednesday. Then I spent Tuesday and Wednesday looking at the two square boxes. Managed to watch "The Devil wears Prada" n "The Spartan". 9am/1pm - Oprah time (did some soul searching). Then finally hubby managed to get leave on Thursday, so while waiting for the kids, we went to tHE Spring - bought a Ms Read's blouse and that's it...... My life is so boring..... I keep on bugging him for a second wheel. Tunggu lah when I get it......and on top of that, the weather is so HOT.

Today, I managed to go for that long due facial appointment, I snoozed then went for my HfF dinner@Country Court. It was nice to meet up with the gang since I didn't see them for a week and did some catching up..Surprisingly, nobody took photos this time so I got nothing to share with you guys.....

So here I am....

I am bored.....

I think I'll call it a day. Goodnite. Hopefully tomorrow I have some topics to write about eh...

Fireman, Sam

I had an excited experience just the other morn (and no... it was not sex). Just around 2.30am@Friday I was awaken by the sound of a car honing outside and what sound like burnt leaves. When I looked outside my bedroom, to my horror the shack my neighbour build for the children as a play-house was on fire and another neighbour was trying to get our attention by honing. Have not seen a bonfire for a long time....but I have to admit, it was such an exciting moment. They managed to put out the fire and minutes later I can here the siren.... at this moment I frantically was looking for my camera...(ooo... am so excited - the fire brigade in front of the house). I try to take pictures but you all know am not good with gadget.. The bonfire was 'the' climax for me that morn and as usual after a great sex zzzzzzzzzzzzz.

How are you feeling??

I don't know...

Am upset with my PC:-

It is slow and wasting my time - nothing has been done..

I can't log-in my Yahoo account - unable to read my mails...

I can't log-in my ESOS - unable to monitor my shares.....

I can't (don't know how) to transfer my photos from camera to PC - unable to share photos..

ACTION PLANS

Get Streamyx.....

Get new Laptop/Note Book.....OR

get myself a new wheel so I can move around on weekends and get interact with the world instead of just looking at the square boxes (TV and PC), that will really do me good eh....

Next question...

DO I HAVE THE MONEY?.....

Any body want to start a "Save Doli's sanity's funds".