I AM depress - Am I????

A friend said my blog "sound" depress.......

Maybe if I had

- my monthly facial and body massage

- a wild car ride

- Karaoke session + Kahlua(milk) or Vodka(lime)

with her,

I would not be so.............

My old diary

I found my old diary yesterday. It was actually just an exercise book; nothing fancy but it contents a whole load of emotion of a school girl (yeah.... the year 1991.) It was nostalgic... Even as I read it I feel the emotion and even cried. My life them were divided between school and church but between it was always GOD. Looking back...... How I miss those time when you can just enjoy your youth and never really had serious responsibilities. I found friends and make enemies at the same time, I felt in love and learn to let go but NOT becoz we grew apart but becoz he thought I deserves somebody better. He was right..... but there is always a soft spot for him in my heart.... and there was that time when I didn't do well in my exam I cried ONLY with Wylie and Fly, the wild and crazy car rides I had with Audrey, slept-overs and sunsets with Hena, camps with the youth, supper with Korno, Eng Siong, Hinly, Hena, Hui Khoon, Audrey, Wylie, Fly... Don't call it foolish, a waste of time or even puppy love; it's a phase of every ones' lives. So, what's YOUR story?

(O.K guys, the photos were re-shot by an armature who didn't know that you were not suppose to use flash - she is learning things new everyday) On top sekali is my all time favourite photo
Front: Norman, Jo(Nursing in UK), Press(BSN), Dot(in Tasmania), El and Me
Back: Jeffry(GH Doktor), Fitzgerald(Miri), Kismet, Marcelino, Raynore(Borneo Post), Richard, unknown figure, Anau, Joshua and Edward.

Down photo:
Front: Jo, my two teachers + daughter and Me
Back: Press, Suzy, El, Thien, Hon and Venus


Far right:-
Korno, Hui Khoon, Hinly, Angela, Me, El, Eng Siong, Nickson and Eileen - the Youth Carolling

My Roots ..... a pinch of it at least..

I know that the blog been read by others from others places and I guess I am oblige to tell them who I am or at least tell them of my race. I'm born to a Bidayuh (also known as the Land Dayak) dad and an Iban (aka Sea Dayak) mom. So that makes me a mix. My grandma originated from Kapit and she spent her lifetime along the Rejang River, moving from Nanga Benin to Nanga Pelagus until she passed away. My childhood were full with memories of her, how me and my brothers will be looking-out of the window from our quarters (my dad was in the police force and our place was just in front of the bus stop @ Lanang Camp in Sibu; see photo)waiting for her and we will be shouting Ine!!! Ine!!!! (Iban for grandma) and be running out to meet her. Of coz I will remember how delicious her Asi gureng enggau Pusu and how we were asked to help her grind the buah pinang so she can ate it with "Kapur" + Sirih. After that we will be entertained with cerita Apai Saloi and No matter how many times we heard the stories we were not bored. How I miss Ine.......

I don't know much of Ake (grandad) becoz he passed away earlier; accept that he was tall and handsome, had few wives and he was actually from Aup, Sibu. So I have relatives from that side of the world too. His name was Siba. Ine was Mengan so I named my daughter Bethany Megan in her memories.

My Babai; Sanub also passed away without us knowing and meeting him. Both him and my Sumbuk; Siong from Benuk 20 miles from Kuching. I don't have any fond memories of her. I remember the constant scolding from her or maybe she was just being loud coz I didn't understood a single word of Bidayuh then..

I guess my Iban side is stronger than Bidayuh; it's my mother's tongue and I am also very lucky to find a Bidayuh guy from Quap to be my children's father. Even my Bidayuh colleagues ever cited they do not want their children to be like me - a Bidayuh who does not know Bidayuh's language or even it's culture... I don't feel bad becoz I feel I AM AN IBAN AND PROUD OF IT!!!!!

I wish I can share with you my Ine's photo but since the family house in under going major renovation and I can't seems to find the photos I 'll post it when I have it ya....

Happy Birthday Human....

Yeah... that was what yesterday was according to my Chinese bosses ( also the Chinese Mythology). It was when all human being were created and it was also the seventh day of the Chinese New Year. So to all you guys who couldn't be there to celebrate the Human birthday, here are some snapshots (from the office).



These two are my breakfast buddies now, Mary and Fiona with Adam; Sylvia & Anuar's



Here, Fiona & Adam



Witnessing the Lion 'blessing' Teo's cubicle and Fiona joining in the dance....

HAPPY S.A.D.

It's for SINGLE AWARENESS DAY. So for all my single friends - enjoy and embrace the day with an attitude, live as if it's your last day on earth.

As for me, no Valentine dinner tonite as the other half is on his business trip to KL and only be back on Saturday evening but this was what I had for my "romantic breakfast":-



It's Laksa Sarawak and I know Catherine would be oozing for this if she were to see this (Cat, I miss you. FYI Catherine is in the States enjoying herself for 3 years). If you are reading my blog please e-mail me sometimes ya.......

Beth came home from Kindy with this art craft that I am so proud of and like to share with you guys.



So to all lovers out there especially ND & Evelind "Happy Valentine's Day".

Opss she did it again!!!

Yeah, and I meant Britney Spears. I don't know why I find the subject very interesting. I used to adore and love her(during her early exposure) but when she started to hook-up with her dancer Mr. Federline nothing good came out of her except for her two sons. Even worst Kevin Federline of all people "can find his way into the 50 Most Influential Men under 45 list as compiled by Details magazine under The Good Father Category. - Cleo Mag Feb08). Can you beat that. Luckily the dad is the court-appointed conservator of her estate. This is only my opinion but the people in her live are just as suck as her ex; all are in for the money.

My time blogging seems to be very limited now as there is no free wi-fi anymore. We've been discovered and locked and why only Miri is getting everything free. Kuching should too. I've been sick. I went around trying to see our panel doctors a day before Chinese New Year and I couldn't find a single panel doctor to certified that I was sick and couldn't work so I had to work on that day - the pain that I have to go through.... I went to Klinik Penawar on Thursday night coz suddenly the other half also had the same symptoms but today is Saturday and I don't feel any better. Woken-up with an attitude, scolded everybody and managed to get mom and Beth to sweep the floor, dad and Jaja to scrubbed the bathroom and I did the mopping and of coz somebody just wouldn't care less....

That's life.....